“Mental Illness” vs. “Brain Disorder”

brain disorderI’ve seen the term “brain disorder” cropping up all over the place– a replacement for the term “mental illness.”

I like it.

It’s a better description, sounds more clinical (to me), and is free of the baggage that comes with the phrase “mental illness.” I think it suits the sufferer better too– it frames the person as a victim of a sickness instead of as a culprit. It’s more of an noun than an adjective. (Yes, yes, I know “mental illness” is a noun too, but so often we hear it used as a descriptor: she is mentally ill.  I don’t think people would say, She’s brain disorder-y.) It gets to be what it is: an affliction.

I’d love to hear your thoughts: do you like one term more than the other? Or would you suggest something entirely different?

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Author/Editor Disagreements

disagreementWhat happens when an author and her editor disagree?

I’ll admit that not knowing the answer to this question is what started my intense bouts of panic, which started almost immediately after I was offered my book deal.

Now, nearly one year later (the first panic “attack”– I’m not sure it was a full-blown panic attack, but that is the best way that I can think to describe it– occurred on November 22, 2013), I have an answer to that question, though, of course, I can only answer from the perspective of my own partnership with my brilliant and beloved editor at Katherine Tegen Books.

She let me win.

Granted, I took nearly every suggestion she gave. She really is a genius when it comes to YA literature, and though feedback often stings, in almost every case, I could see why she made the suggestions, and when I took them, I loved the results.

There was only one thing– and it’s a big SPOILER, so I can’t share yet!– where she and I were on opposite sides of the fence, and I stressed and stressed and stressed.  Panic rolled off me in waves. I was sick over it, and cried my heart out to my team, prayed for a solution from God. Finally, I just explained my reasoning for my decision, detailing how important it was to me, and my editor said, Then let’s do it your way. I get it now. But we’ll work on it.

And we did.

And Truest is better for it.

She also let me win several smaller victories too, once I explained my reasoning. She has been so, so respectful of the fact that this is my story– my baby— and she wants me to be happy with it.

I am.

You guys, I cannot wait for you to read my story.

[Rambling Thoughts on] Self-Publishing vs. Traditional Publishing

self pub vs trad pubI often see people falling into the camp of “If I Can’t Publish Traditionally, I’ll Self Publish,” and I think that’s a dangerous place to vacation, since there are pros and cons to both sides. In my (amateur) opinion, it’s better to examine both sides thoroughly and choose which avenue suits you best and then go after it.

Obviously, in traditional publishing, there’s the benefit of having a publishing house to help edit your book, format it, market it, etc., but then again, your royalties are significantly less than if you self-publish (we’re talking maybe less than 15% for traditional and about 70% for self). In self-publishing, you have total control of everything (your book’s content and cover, your marketing plan, etc.), and in traditional publishing, you lose a lot of that control. On the flip side, you’re working with experts who can often push your writing past the brink of your own talent and into a whole new level.

Sometimes I talk to people who say, “Well, if I can’t get a traditional book deal, then I’ll just self-publish this story, write another book, and hope to publish that one traditionally.”  My concern with this is that if your self-pubbed book doesn’t sell well, you’re going to have one more hill to climb to get an agent for the next book. In other words, if an agent sees that your self-published title didn’t sell well, it’s going to be an even bigger gamble for them to take you on.

That’s why I say to just stick to your guns.  Make an informed decision of what you want and go after it.

That might mean abandoning your first story (or second or third) to the bottom drawer while you work on crafting a new story.

And that, my friends, is hard.

I poured four years of my life– blood, sweat, tears, joy, sorrow– into writing Lights All Around, and for it to not get an agent was tough.

But I will tell you right now: it wasn’t ready. It really wasn’t.  Oh, how I thought it was!  But, now, three years later, I can’t tell you how glad I am that it’s in the bottom drawer and that Truest will be my debut novel.

Consider the alternative: what if I had self-published Lights All Around?  Well, I know now that I would not have had the resources to promote and market it, so I would have had piddly sales. Then, when I tried to sell Truest, I’d have had to explain my lack of sales. And even if I’d still gotten the book deal for Truest, I’d probably be ashamed that I had this sub-par first novel floating around out there.

I repeat: I did not think it was sub-par when I was querying it. It was the best I had to offer at the time. But really, I was just cutting my teeth on writing fiction. I had so much to learn. My gosh, I STILL have so much to learn.

Anyway, I know this post is all over the place, but I hope that it sheds some light on things to consider as you determine which route is best for you! Would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below!

Books I Re-Read LIKE A BOSS

HK.ColinI’ve heard all the reasons before for why people don’t re-read books– and I’ll allow each his own– but I really can’t understand it. Refusing to re-read favorite books is, to me, the equivalent of saying, “Why would I want to hang out with my best friend? I’ve done that before, and there are so many new people to meet.”

Can. Not. Fathom.

Did you know that I listen to The Chronicles of Narnia nearly every single night as I fall asleep? They are my faithful bedtime story, and I never get sick of them. I’ve been known to listen to The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe multiple times in a row: I listen, it ends, I start it over, it’s all good. One time I listened to The Horse and His Boy something like five or six times in one month. Every year I plan to keep track of how often I read these books in the course of a year, but sometime halfway through, I lose track.

The Book Thief is always, always a fantastic re-read.  The snowman in the basement and the hair like lemons and the sun painted on the wall. This book is one of the novels that changed my life, and returning to it is like returning home, like finding myself in the space where the light flipped on in my writer heart.

I could never tire of re-reading The Last Unicorn. There are lines in this novel that are like friends to me. I could never tire of them. Every single time I re-read them, I feel astonished, as if I just found a diamond resting under a leaf. I would surrender wheelbarrows of unread manuscripts just to make sure that I could keep this one in my possession forever.

Then, of course, there’s scripture– which is the only living and active book I know. I will re-read this one for life. (And, yes, I meant that two ways.)

How about you? Which books can you read over and over and over again?  Or– if you don’t re-read– try to convince me you’re sane. 🙂

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Managing OCD-in-Remission

My OCD has been in remission for about six years now– six delicious years of sweet freedom! Have I had any flare-ups? Yes, a handful, but nothing like I used to experience.

Here’s what I’ve learned.

1. Anticipate setbacks.
Is life particularly awesome lately? Are you feeling joyful? Your OCD hates that and will likely be along shortly to steal what it can from you. Be ready for it and …

2. Return immediately to ERP.
Do not pass GO. Do not collect $200.  Just dive headfirst into an old exposure. Doing this shows OCD that you’re still calling the shots and brimming with bravery.

There. It’s as straightforward as that.

What other tips do you have for managing OCD in remission?

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