About Jackie Lea Sommers

Minneapolis YA author who rather enjoys Jesus, stories, cute nerds, and cranky teenagers. Jackie blogs about OCD, faith, and creativity at www.jackieleasommers.com.

Anastasis

Anastasis, noun.

1. Recovery from a debilitating condition

2. Rebirth

3. Resurrection

All three are on my mind this Holy Saturday.

This virus has ravaged the world and pinned us to cardboard like moths, even those who don’t have the disease. I can hardly bear to read the stories from actual sufferers. All I’m asked to do is stay home, and I feel the claustrophia of it even though no stone is rolled against my door.

And yet, it’s been beautiful to see so many rise up. You know the stories. You’ve seen the songs from balconies, the kitchens feeding those without homes, the notes on doors telling neighbors, “Just call me. I’ll get whatever you need.” I feel a companionship with the entire planet.

This has been an unusual holy week; sometimes I’ve forgotten what day it is. Palm Sunday snuck up on me like humility, which, of course, it is.

Yet somehow I so deeply relate. Surrounded on all sides by fear and suffering and death, I long for the resurrection of “regular life.” Tomorrow will unlikely be the miraculous end of COVID-19, but the resurrection joy I await is so palpably symbolic.

Easter has snuck up on me like hope, which, of course, it is.

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Quarantine Syllabus

nick-fewings-ka7REB1AJl4-unsplashHonestly, I’m taking this quarantine day by day (sometimes minute by minute), and I’m respecting my body and anxiety when they tells me they just want to be still or watch Netflix or take a second nap.

Motivation comes and goes. I am using this as a guide. Week one is just ending, and I only revised 15 of the 25 pages I’d hoped for. It’s okay. It’s all okay. I’m grateful for any steps I take; I’m [trying to be] gracious about any steps I can’t.

Posting this partially for accountability– but also just in case it helps anyone else.

Syllabus for Writing Salt Novel
14 Weeks

“[T]his ‘work’ had been driven by the question, What’s wrong with me? The question her Mentor replaced this with was, Which parts of myself need to be loved today?
The Hero is You, Kendra Levin

Required Reading
All That Is Made: a Guide to Faith and the Creative Life from Alabaster Co.
The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown
Keep Going by Austin Kleon

March 30-April 5


Reading:

Part I, Ch. 1 All That Is Made 𛲠

Pg. 1-22 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 1 of Keep Going 𛲠


Revise:

Pg. 1-25 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

April 6-April 12

Reading:

Part I, Ch. 2-3 All That Is Made 𛲠

Pg. 23-48 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 26-50 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

April 13-April 19

Reading:

Part I, Ch. 4 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #1 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 2 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 51-75 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

Conversation with a Creative Ally 𛲠

 

April 20-April 26

Reading:

Part I, Ch. 5-6 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #2 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 76-100 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

April 27-May 3

Reading:

Part I, Ch. 7 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #3 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 3 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 101-125 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

May 4-May 10

Reading:

Part I, Ch. 8-9 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #4 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 4 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

No revisions this week/Catch-up

 

Conversation with a Creative Mentor 𛲠

 

May 11-May 17

Reading:

Part II, Ch. 1 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #5 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 5 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 126-150 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

May 18-May 24

Reading:

Part II, Ch. 2-3 All That Is Made

Guidepost #6 Gifts of Imperfection

Step 6 of Keep Going

 

Revise:

Pg. 151-175 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

May 25-May 31

Reading:

Part II, Ch. 4 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #7 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 7 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 176-200 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

Conversation with a Creative Ally 𛲠

 

June 1-June 7

Reading:

Part II, Ch. 5-6 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #8 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 8 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 201-225 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

June 8-June 14

Reading:

Part III, Ch. 1 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #9 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 9 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 226-250 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

June 15-June 21

Reading:

Part III, Ch. 2 All That Is Made 𛲠

Guidepost #10 Gifts of Imperfection 𛲠

Step 10 of Keep Going 𛲠

 

No revisions this week/Catch-up

 

Conversation with a Creative Mentor 𛲠

 

June 22-June 28

Reading:

Part III, Ch. 3-4 All That Is Made 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 251-275 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

June 29-July 5

Reading:

Part III, Ch. 5-6 All That Is Made 𛲠

 

Revise:

Pg. 276-300 𛲠

Related “Interview” Chapter Breaks 𛲠

 

Celebrate Independence Day!

 

InstaThoughts

I don’t believe anyone needs to make this time special or productive. But I think *I* need to, as much as I can. I know there will be a lot of days that are just sad and full of coping. But, when I’m able, I want to use this time in ways that are meaningful to me.
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InstaThoughts

This is my self inventory. It works in quarantine too.
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InstaThoughts

I’m so overwhelmed. Not necessarily a bad thing. Being in an uncomfortable space, learning hard things, being unsettled… This helps me grow. But it is overwhelming.
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I’ve been watching @huntersonprime. It is blowing my mind. I can only manage two episodes a day because it makes me think and feel so many things.
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Then, in listening to the @cities_arts podcast and hearing the Hebrew phrase “tikkun olam,” literally “repair of the world, ” as a vocation of God’s people… Very powerful, especially in combination with watching Hunters.
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It is devastating to see the hatred that fuels genocide still so alive and well in the world. It is devastating to relearn history (#OperationPaperclip) and fear we’ve learned nothing. It is devastating to feel powerless.
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But I am not powerless. I have a voice and compassion and courage. I have a calling. I have choices. God, give me strength to repair the world.
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I'm so overwhelmed. Not necessarily a bad thing. Being in an uncomfortable space, learning hard things, being unsettled… This helps me grow. But it is overwhelming. . . I've been watching @huntersonprime. It is blowing my mind. I can only manage two episodes a day because it makes me think and feel so many things. . . Then, in listening to the @cities_arts podcast and hearing the Hebrew phrase "tikkun olam," literally "repair of the world, " as a vocation of God's people… Very powerful, especially in combination with watching Hunters. . . It is devastating to see the hatred that fuels genocide still so alive and well in the world. It is devastating to relearn history (#OperationPaperclip) and fear we've learned nothing. It is devastating to feel powerless. . . But I am not powerless. I have a voice and compassion and courage. I have a calling. I have choices. God, give me strength to repair the world. . . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #radicalacceptance #tikkunolam #fighthatred #antiracism #givemestrength

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InstaThoughts

I resonated with what @drjoshuawolrich wrote earlier this week about why he so often posts selfies. Because they’re easy image content and the writing is what is important to him. Same for me.
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Usually. Sometimes I’m impressed with my eye makeup.
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But yeah, selfies are fast photo content and allow me to spend my time and energy with the words.
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I will say that as someone who has struggled with body image, posting selfies can also be therapeutic. And I’ve also been trying to post “undone” selfies too, because vulnerability is more important to me than perception. (That’s why I have a highlight reel on insta called “imperfect.” It’s critical to me that I not let my social media become a way to hide the hard things.)
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Anyway, here’s another selfie. I’m so glad to be home after four days of dog-sitting in my parents’ house. As a child I never felt unsafe there in the farmhouse out in the quiet countryside. As an adult who has watched far too many crime shows, I felt like it was the perfect location for a murder that would never be solved.
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Home now. 😁
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I resonated with what @drjoshuawolrich wrote earlier this week about why he so often posts selfies. Because they're easy image content and the writing is what is important to him. Same for me. . Usually. Sometimes I'm impressed with my eye makeup. . But yeah, selfies are fast photo content and allow me to spend my time and energy with the words. . I will say that as someone who has struggled with body image, posting selfies can also be therapeutic. And I've also been trying to post "undone" selfies too, because vulnerability is more important to me than perception. (That's why I have a highlight reel on insta called "imperfect." It's critical to me that I not let my social media become a way to hide the hard things.) . Anyway, here's another selfie. I'm so glad to be home after four days of dog-sitting in my parents' house. As a child I never felt unsafe there in the farmhouse out in the quiet countryside. As an adult who has watched far too many crime shows, I felt like it was the perfect location for a murder that would never be solved. . Home now. 😁 . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #worthiness #belovedness #praise

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InstaThoughts

I was inspired by @bymariandrew and spent time really thinking through this. It is a mix of what I believe possible and what I am reaching for. Every word is tremendously intentional. The one I struggled with was “compassion” because I am trying to find a gentle, positive word specifically for kindness to self. Most words I found had negative connotations: selfish, indulgent, vanity, self-serving. I want the word where you indulge yourself in gentle abundance. Ideas? .
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I was inspired by @bymariandrew and spent time really thinking through this. It is a mix of what I believe possible and what I am reaching for. Every word is tremendously intentional. The one I struggled with was "compassion" because I am trying to find a gentle, positive word specifically for kindness to self. Most words I found had negative connotations: selfish, indulgent, vanity, self-serving. I want the word where you indulge yourself in gentle abundance. Ideas? . . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #worthiness #belovedness #praise

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InstaThoughts

I need to wear this sign around my neck, post it on my social media, leave it as my out-of-office reply. I dislike saying no to dear friends (I love saying no to most others, ha!). I love that I get to advocate for students right now, but I hate making them wait. I love having so many projects on the horizon, but it’s hard to keep all the plates spinning. It feels like I have so many items that are about 50% done and NO items at 100% done.
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I want to enjoy the productivity, not wallow in the stress. Please know that I am working my way out. ❤️ #blog

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InstaThoughts

The sun came up today. Mercies are new. It’s a brand new day ready to fill with pages and mistakes. (Hint: that’s a good thing!)
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Hard Knock Week

A few photos to illustrate my week (swipe left). Sad and funky for no reason. Then again, I have this ginormous bruise on my stomach and the Knot of Wrath & Vitriol  in my back, so maybe that’s why I’m sad and funky?
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I was three for three on doctor appts this week, despite having canceled one of them about six times in the months leading up to now. It was part of my 2020 goals. Slammed a bunch into one day. The worst part was being weighed. Well, and feeling like I wasn’t being heard. (Don’t worry, I made sure I was!) Turns out bodies are complicated. I already knew this. Sometimes I welcome the reminder; sometimes it just makes me want to scream.
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It’s Friday night, the best part of the week, and I’m lying in bed, wondering if it’s inevitable that I just Cry It Out.
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One beautiful thing I have learned is that I WON’T ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY. Took a long time to recognize and kill that lie. I relish in knowing the truth.
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Sorry it if feels like venting. For me, it’s important that I tell the truth on my social media. I’m sometimes (very) sad. I’m sometimes lonely. I’m often in pain. I know tomorrow almost always brings light and perspective. Hugs to all!
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