About Jackie Lea Sommers

Minneapolis YA author who rather enjoys Jesus, stories, cute nerds, and cranky teenagers. Jackie blogs about OCD, faith, and creativity at www.jackieleasommers.com.

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I resonated with what @drjoshuawolrich wrote earlier this week about why he so often posts selfies. Because they’re easy image content and the writing is what is important to him. Same for me.
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Usually. Sometimes I’m impressed with my eye makeup.
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But yeah, selfies are fast photo content and allow me to spend my time and energy with the words.
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I will say that as someone who has struggled with body image, posting selfies can also be therapeutic. And I’ve also been trying to post “undone” selfies too, because vulnerability is more important to me than perception. (That’s why I have a highlight reel on insta called “imperfect.” It’s critical to me that I not let my social media become a way to hide the hard things.)
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Anyway, here’s another selfie. I’m so glad to be home after four days of dog-sitting in my parents’ house. As a child I never felt unsafe there in the farmhouse out in the quiet countryside. As an adult who has watched far too many crime shows, I felt like it was the perfect location for a murder that would never be solved.
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Home now. 😁
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I resonated with what @drjoshuawolrich wrote earlier this week about why he so often posts selfies. Because they're easy image content and the writing is what is important to him. Same for me. . Usually. Sometimes I'm impressed with my eye makeup. . But yeah, selfies are fast photo content and allow me to spend my time and energy with the words. . I will say that as someone who has struggled with body image, posting selfies can also be therapeutic. And I've also been trying to post "undone" selfies too, because vulnerability is more important to me than perception. (That's why I have a highlight reel on insta called "imperfect." It's critical to me that I not let my social media become a way to hide the hard things.) . Anyway, here's another selfie. I'm so glad to be home after four days of dog-sitting in my parents' house. As a child I never felt unsafe there in the farmhouse out in the quiet countryside. As an adult who has watched far too many crime shows, I felt like it was the perfect location for a murder that would never be solved. . Home now. 😁 . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #worthiness #belovedness #praise

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I was inspired by @bymariandrew and spent time really thinking through this. It is a mix of what I believe possible and what I am reaching for. Every word is tremendously intentional. The one I struggled with was “compassion” because I am trying to find a gentle, positive word specifically for kindness to self. Most words I found had negative connotations: selfish, indulgent, vanity, self-serving. I want the word where you indulge yourself in gentle abundance. Ideas? .
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I was inspired by @bymariandrew and spent time really thinking through this. It is a mix of what I believe possible and what I am reaching for. Every word is tremendously intentional. The one I struggled with was "compassion" because I am trying to find a gentle, positive word specifically for kindness to self. Most words I found had negative connotations: selfish, indulgent, vanity, self-serving. I want the word where you indulge yourself in gentle abundance. Ideas? . . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #worthiness #belovedness #praise

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I need to wear this sign around my neck, post it on my social media, leave it as my out-of-office reply. I dislike saying no to dear friends (I love saying no to most others, ha!). I love that I get to advocate for students right now, but I hate making them wait. I love having so many projects on the horizon, but it’s hard to keep all the plates spinning. It feels like I have so many items that are about 50% done and NO items at 100% done.
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I want to enjoy the productivity, not wallow in the stress. Please know that I am working my way out. ❀️ #blog

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The sun came up today. Mercies are new. It’s a brand new day ready to fill with pages and mistakes. (Hint: that’s a good thing!)
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Hard Knock Week

A few photos to illustrate my week (swipe left). Sad and funky for no reason. Then again, I have this ginormous bruise on my stomach and the Knot of Wrath & Vitriol  in my back, so maybe that’s why I’m sad and funky?
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I was three for three on doctor appts this week, despite having canceled one of them about six times in the months leading up to now. It was part of my 2020 goals. Slammed a bunch into one day. The worst part was being weighed. Well, and feeling like I wasn’t being heard. (Don’t worry, I made sure I was!) Turns out bodies are complicated. I already knew this. Sometimes I welcome the reminder; sometimes it just makes me want to scream.
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It’s Friday night, the best part of the week, and I’m lying in bed, wondering if it’s inevitable that I just Cry It Out.
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One beautiful thing I have learned is that I WON’T ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY. Took a long time to recognize and kill that lie. I relish in knowing the truth.
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Sorry it if feels like venting. For me, it’s important that I tell the truth on my social media. I’m sometimes (very) sad. I’m sometimes lonely. I’m often in pain. I know tomorrow almost always brings light and perspective. Hugs to all!
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I often spend my birthday considering all the things I didn’t achieve in the previous year, but not at 38. I told myself this year I would celebrate all I did accomplish, the ways I grew, the things I learned.
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I reclaimed my identity as a writer. I sat with shame and insecurity until lies started to reveal themselves. Beneath the bandages I found a badass woman. I revised approximately twenty chapters of my novel. πŸ“
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I did less public speaking than usual, but what I did was meaningful and impactful and usually on topics of leadership and identity. I also gave financial aid presentations that made people laugh.
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I made a lot of keto meals. 🍳
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I attended therapy almost weekly, investing in myself and in becoming the most self aware, empathetic version of myself. I cried a lot of tears in that office, but I also confronted lies about inadequacy, shame, fear.
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I survived online dating, which is a messy, emotional, and sometimes cruel and gross experience. I never settled in my continued search for a hero.
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I took kids to Justice, the movies, to the bookstore.
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I was, on at least two separate occasions, spontaneous. πŸ˜‚
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I did my very best to fully listen to every high schooler and college student I met with and to lean on my intuition for when to share my own story or a few words I felt they needed to hear.
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I gave money to causes I care about. I spoke my heart even when there was backlash. I defended underdogs. I reminded women of their worth.
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I did not let people talk down to me.
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I survived an HOA construction project as well as one in my own home. It felt like an elephant stood on my chest for over eight months, but I made it. 🐘
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I found rest and comfort and a fire for justice and mercy in the gospel.
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I practiced compassion as best I could. I am still learning.
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I read great books. πŸ“š
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I got incredible sleep thanks to a life changing CPAP machine. 😴
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I received the incredibly overwhelming love and kindness of friends and family. I hope my friends feel their hearts are as safe with me as I feel mine is with them. ❀️
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That was 37. Here’s to 38. I invite growth, challenge, wisdom, compassion and empathy, fire and fight.
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I often spend my birthday considering all the things I didn't achieve in the previous year, but not at 38. I told myself this year I would celebrate all I did accomplish, the ways I grew, the things I learned. . I reclaimed my identity as a writer. I sat with shame and insecurity until lies started to reveal themselves. Beneath the bandages I found a badass woman. I revised approximately twenty chapters of my novel. πŸ“ . I did less public speaking than usual, but what I did was meaningful and impactful and usually on topics of leadership and identity. I also gave financial aid presentations that made people laugh. . I made a lot of keto meals. 🍳 . I attended therapy almost weekly, investing in myself and in becoming the most self aware, empathetic version of myself. I cried a lot of tears in that office, but I also confronted lies about inadequacy, shame, fear. . I survived online dating, which is a messy, emotional, and sometimes cruel and gross experience. I never settled in my continued search for a hero. . I took kids to Justice, the movies, to the bookstore. . I was, on at least two separate occasions, spontaneous. πŸ˜‚ . I did my very best to fully listen to every high schooler and college student I met with and to lean on my intuition for when to share my own story or a few words I felt they needed to hear. . I gave money to causes I care about. I spoke my heart even when there was backlash. I defended underdogs. I reminded women of their worth. . I did not let people talk down to me. . I survived an HOA construction project as well as one in my own home. It felt like an elephant stood on my chest for over eight months, but I made it. 🐘 . I found rest and comfort and a fire for justice and mercy in the gospel. . I practiced compassion as best I could. I am still learning. . I read great books. πŸ“š . I got incredible sleep thanks to a life changing CPAP machine. 😴 . I received the incredibly overwhelming love and kindness of friends and family. I hope my friends feel their hearts are as safe with me as I feel mine is with them. ❀️ . That was 37. Here's to 38. I invite growth, challenge, wisdom, compassion and empathy, fire and fight. . #blog

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Allow me to share a few excellent books on writing craft/writing life.

The Hero is You by Kendra Levin was life-changing for me; it is having a therapist/life coach/writing mentor walking beside you through artistic trauma and stagnancy.
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The Emotional Craft of Fiction by Donald Maas is an in-the-trenches look at what makes fiction work. I felt *enlightened* reading this one.
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Annie Dillard’s The Writing Life is a classic. (As is Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, which seems to have wandered off my shelves.)
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The War of Art is a diatribe against resistance in the writing life. It challenged me. The Art of Slow Writing by Louise de Salvo is a patient reminder that making beautiful things out of words takes time.
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The Anatomy of Story by John Truby is fascinating: it helped me examine the story I was building from the inside out. Anatomy indeed.
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Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg is another classic. I revisited it recently and it gave me the same zing of excitement about writing that it did when I first read it in college.
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Save the Cat by Blake Snyder is the first book that’s given me a plot formula that is loose enough to *not* be formulaic. My WIP is benefitting hugely from this book. .
There are so many other good ones. Which ones do you suggest? Do any of these sound like books you need at this season of your craft?
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Allow me to share a few excellent books on writing craft/writing life. The Hero is You by Kendra Levin was life-changing for me; it is having a therapist/life coach/writing mentor walking beside you through artistic trauma and stagnancy. . The Emotional Craft of Fiction by Donald Maas is an in-the-trenches look at what makes fiction work. I felt *enlightened* reading this one. . Annie Dillard's The Writing Life is a classic. (As is Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott, which seems to have wandered off my shelves.) . The War of Art is a diatribe against resistance in the writing life. It challenged me. The Art of Slow Writing by Louise de Salvo is a patient reminder that making beautiful things out of words takes time. . The Anatomy of Story by John Truby is fascinating: it helped me examine the story I was building from the inside out. Anatomy indeed. . Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg is another classic. I revisited it recently and it gave me the same zing of excitement about writing that it did when I first read it in college. . Save the Cat by Blake Snyder is the first book that's given me a plot formula that is loose enough to *not* be formulaic. My WIP is benefitting hugely from this book. . There are so many other good ones. Which ones do you suggest? Do any of these sound like books you need at this season of your craft? . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020 #bookrecs #writingcraft #booksaboutwriting

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The hypocrisy of the church is a deep wound. As @stephenmattson__author pointed out to me during the incredible popularity of the worship song “Oceans,” Christians could sing about keeping their eyes above the waves… While refugee families were risking everything and drowning in the Mediterranean.
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“no one leaves home unless
home is the mouth of a shark”… Go read the whole poem by @wu_shire please.
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2020 is an election year, and I intend to be bold about the gospel-directed reasons why I will vote Democrat. If you have ears to hear, I hope you’ll listen.
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I asked some friends what one or two things I should start with in 2020 to make the rest of the year easier. I thought maybe a doctor visit or wrapping up the bathroom renovation, but @asherinley said “practice radical acceptance and no shaming language.”
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I posted this six months ago. It was a good reminder to raise that flag again. ❀️ #Repost @jackieleasommers
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When reevaluating my goals for the rest of 2019, I decided to make a wild choice: to quit being so terrible to myself. What if I just… QUIT? Quit with the negative self talk, quit with the shame, and just CHOSE confidence, or at least chose to fake confidence.
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Courage is not the absence of fear; it’s bravery in spite of fear. What if I treated confidence the same way? Not the absence of insecurity, but boldness in spite of it. I’m not sure if that makes sense to anyone else.
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There is some evidence that “fake it till you make it” works (with caveats). And stigma and shame are not motivating. So, let’s see. A six-month experiment. Come January 1st, let’s see how I feel about my body, my writing, myself.
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I already feel freedom. How fitting to decide this while celebrating Independence Day.
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I asked some friends what one or two things I should start with in 2020 to make the rest of the year easier. I thought maybe a doctor visit or wrapping up the bathroom renovation, but @asherinley said "practice radical acceptance and no shaming language." . I posted this six months ago. It was a good reminder to raise that flag again. ❀️ #Repost @jackieleasommers β€’ β€’ β€’ β€’ β€’ β€’ When reevaluating my goals for the rest of 2019, I decided to make a wild choice: to quit being so terrible to myself. What if I just… QUIT? Quit with the negative self talk, quit with the shame, and just CHOSE confidence, or at least chose to fake confidence. . . Courage is not the absence of fear; it's bravery in spite of fear. What if I treated confidence the same way? Not the absence of insecurity, but boldness in spite of it. I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone else. . . There is some evidence that "fake it till you make it" works (with caveats). And stigma and shame are not motivating. So, let's see. A six-month experiment. Come January 1st, let's see how I feel about my body, my writing, myself. . . I already feel freedom. How fitting to decide this while celebrating Independence Day. #blog #courage #shame #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #writing #writingcourage #freedom #confidence #choosecourage #noshame #endstigma #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020

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Chose a cute, lighthearted photo of myself to post because I can’t bear another one of me lying in bed, looking sad and overwhelmed.
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I love, love, love the start of a new year. But I do place a lot of responsibility on myself. Goals. Resolutions. Self care. Plans for world domination. I have ten areas of my life I want to rock in 2020. Ten.
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So yeah, I’m overwhelmed. I can’t seem to focus. I feel like my body is a beehive. One thousand goals are buzzing around inside me, making me crazy and panicked. I hope hard work and magic turn them into honey.
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Why so many goals? Why not do something more manageable? Why bite off more than I can chew? Because I want it all. Because the areas overlap into each other. Because I’m called to some of it and some of it is forced on me.
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I think writing will be easier when I can reclaim my basement office. But renovations do not happen on my schedule. And writing will be easier if I can get some hormone help, but I’m nervous for the doctor and need someone to make me brave. But it’s just me. (No, it’s not, but that brings up the whole online dating scene, which is draining.) And I can’t handle draining things when I am already fatigued.
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It all ties together. I can’t isolate things. Maybe someone else can. I’ll ask my therapist. Maybe I should make a list. All I do lately is make lists. Lists keep me sane and give the illusion I’m making progress.
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I AM making progress.
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Sorry for the whining. I really needed to open the pressure valve though, and I do this by blogging. (LUCKY YOU.) ha!
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Welcome, 2020! I want you. Wipe my slate clean. New year, new joys, new mistakes. My theme for 2020 is Jesu Juva. Jesus, Help. Bach famously began his compositions with J.J. in the corner. This resonates deeply with me.
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Chose a cute, lighthearted photo of myself to post because I can't bear another one of me lying in bed, looking sad and overwhelmed. . I love, love, love the start of a new year. But I do place a lot of responsibility on myself. Goals. Resolutions. Self care. Plans for world domination. I have ten areas of my life I want to rock in 2020. Ten. . So yeah, I'm overwhelmed. I can't seem to focus. I feel like my body is a beehive. One thousand goals are buzzing around inside me, making me crazy and panicked. I hope hard work and magic turn them into honey. . Why so many goals? Why not do something more manageable? Why bite off more than I can chew? Because I want it all. Because the areas overlap into each other. Because I'm called to some of it and some of it is forced on me. . I think writing will be easier when I can reclaim my basement office. But renovations do not happen on my schedule. And writing will be easier if I can get some hormone help, but I'm nervous for the doctor and need someone to make me brave. But it's just me. (No, it's not, but that brings up the whole online dating scene, which is draining.) And I can't handle draining things when I am already fatigued. . It all ties together. I can't isolate things. Maybe someone else can. I'll ask my therapist. Maybe I should make a list. All I do lately is make lists. Lists keep me sane and give the illusion I'm making progress. . I AM making progress. . Sorry for the whining. I really needed to open the pressure valve though, and I do this by blogging. (LUCKY YOU.) ha! . Welcome, 2020! I want you. Wipe my slate clean. New year, new joys, new mistakes. My theme for 2020 is Jesu Juva. Jesus, Help. Bach famously began his compositions with J.J. in the corner. This resonates deeply with me. . #blog #writer #writing #writinglife #author #authorsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #courageovercomfort #courage #enneagram4 #enneagram4w3 #4w3 #cultivatewhatmatters #2020goals #ambition #JesuJuva2020

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