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A girl and her ice pack
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I’ve been trying to describe extreme #heatintolerance this past week. .
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Picture at which point your own able body starts to hit breaking point due to heat… Is it at 90°? 100°? What temperature or humidity level starts to make you crumble, lose all energy and even the ability to think straight? At what temp does it feel like you can’t breathe?
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For me, it starts around 65-70°. By the time it gets to 85-90° I’m essentially incapable of functioning. Picture an hourglass where the central skinny neck suddenly expands to drop ALL of the sand (i.e. energy)– WHAM!– all at once. It’s 9 am and you’ve got nothing left to give.
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One step at a time till autumn, a slog to kinder days.
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#blog #dysautonomia #heatintoleranceproblems #fibro #fibromyalgia #spoonielife #spoonie #spoontheory #chronicillness

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A girl and her ice pack . . I've been trying to describe extreme #heatintolerance this past week. . . Picture at which point your own able body starts to hit breaking point due to heat… Is it at 90°? 100°? What temperature or humidity level starts to make you crumble, lose all energy and even the ability to think straight? At what temp does it feel like you can't breathe? . . For me, it starts around 65-70°. By the time it gets to 85-90° I'm essentially incapable of functioning. Picture an hourglass where the central skinny neck suddenly expands to drop ALL of the sand (i.e. energy)– WHAM!– all at once. It's 9 am and you've got nothing left to give. . . One step at a time till autumn, a slog to kinder days. . . #blog #dysautonomia #heatintoleranceproblems #fibro #fibromyalgia #spoonielife #spoonie #spoontheory #chronicillness

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From “The Hero is You” by Kendra Levin…
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“… driven by the question, What’s wrong with me? The question her Mentor replaced this with was, Which parts of myself need to be loved today?
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Wow. Yes.
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#blog #writing #writinglife #writingadvice #mentor #SelfCare #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #author

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When reevaluating my goals for the rest of 2019, I decided to make a wild choice: to quit being so terrible to myself. What if I just… QUIT? Quit with the negative self talk, quit with the shame, and just CHOSE confidence, or at least chose to fake confidence.
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Courage is not the absence of fear; it’s bravery in spite of fear. What if I treated confidence the same way? Not the absence of insecurity, but boldness in spite of it. I’m not sure if that makes sense to anyone else.
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There is some evidence that “fake it till you make it” works (with caveats). And stigma and shame are not motivating. So, let’s see. A six-month experiment. Come January 1st, let’s see how I feel about my body, my writing, myself.
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I already feel freedom. How fitting to decide this while celebrating Independence Day.
#blog #courage #shame #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #writing #writingcourage #freedom #confidence #choosecourage #noshame #endstigma

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When reevaluating my goals for the rest of 2019, I decided to make a wild choice: to quit being so terrible to myself. What if I just… QUIT? Quit with the negative self talk, quit with the shame, and just CHOSE confidence, or at least chose to fake confidence. . . Courage is not the absence of fear; it's bravery in spite of fear. What if I treated confidence the same way? Not the absence of insecurity, but boldness in spite of it. I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone else. . . There is some evidence that "fake it till you make it" works (with caveats). And stigma and shame are not motivating. So, let's see. A six-month experiment. Come January 1st, let's see how I feel about my body, my writing, myself. . . I already feel freedom. How fitting to decide this while celebrating Independence Day. #blog #courage #shame #radicalacceptance #radicalselfacceptance #bodypositivity #bodyposi #writing #writingcourage #freedom #confidence #choosecourage #noshame #endstigma

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My Life-Long Pursuit of Becoming a Robot

I have spent most of my life believing that if I could whittle life down to a very particular, incredibly productive routine, I would be a Success Machine.

I still am in pursuit of that elusive routine. Even though 37 years of experience has taught me that it doesn’t exist– or that it would be impossible to maintain.

But I don’t give up on the idea. I want to be a machine (albeit with creative and emotional capacities) that Achieves.

Why is this lie not one I’m willing to give up on yet? In fact, I’m not even sure i’m ready yet to label it a lie. Is it a lie?

I know that this holiday weekend, I will devote time to crafting and refining that routine once again, trying to crack that code.

Is there a code?

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