This is the second night in a row I’ve been up till after 3 am. I’ve been working on revisions till midnight and then apparently my mind can’t settle itself.

It’s probably not fair to assess one’s wellbeing at 4 am, but I feel ALL THE FEELINGS. Shame. Fear. Gratitude. Hope.

Someone told me tonight he pictured God using me to go into a dark dungeon to love people back to life and release them to God. It’s so beautiful. I want that.

Then I think how silly and foolish and sinful I am. I know His power is made perfect in my weakness, but OH, I am SO WEAK.