Truest: An Editing Timeline

A lot a lot a LOT of work goes into writing a novel. Here’s what went into the writing of Truest, my debut novel. Please note that when I say “editing” or “revising,” I am not referring to correcting grammar and typos but rather things like adding storylines, beefing up characters, changing the structure of the novel, writing new scenes, etc.

Broken pencil fragments on yellow paper
January-June 2012:
first draft
June-December 2012: self-edits, assisted by my local writing group
December 2012: hired a local editor to do developmental edits
January-March 2013: frantic revisions/re-structuring* based on editor’s feedback
March 2013: attended Big Sur Writing Workshop for additional editing help
March-April 2013: more editing based on Big Sur feedback
April 2013: hired local editor again for line edits
April-July 2013: line editing
July 2013: signed with a literary agent and made major (and difficult) revisions based on my agent’s feedback
November 2013: literary agent sold my book to Harper
February-September 2014: re-structuring* and MAJOR, MAJOR revisions based on my editor’s feedback

After this will come copyediting. 🙂

And, let me tell you, it was all worth it. I love the characters and the story and the plot so much more than I could have ever imagined back when the idea first was born.

*The original draft had a chronological timeline. The local editor suggested I change it to a back-and-forth past-and-present timeline; I had six weeks to completely re-structure it before Big Sur. Then, later, my HarperCollins editor asked me to change it back to chronological order. She also gave me six weeks for the re-structuring.

There’s pre-ordering … and then there’s PRE-ORDERING.

processingOne of my therapists once talked to me about healthy ways to reward myself.

“For example,” she said, “maybe if you meet such-and-such goal, you can buy yourself a book. Don’t you think that would be a great option?”

I didn’t know how to tell her that would never work for me because I buy every single book I want.

Buying books is one area where I never hold back. I have so many books delivered to Northwestern that the loading dock workers know me as “the Barnes & Noble girl.”

To the right is a list of some of my most recent purchases. Wherever it says “Processing,” that indicates a pre-order. I pre-order books as soon as I’m able– sometimes months and months and months in advance.

And in the case of Melina Marchetta books, I’ve taken to purchasing Australian copies because I’m too impatient to wait the extra six months for the books to come out in the US.

Am I obsessed? Yes. And not a bit ashamed!

What’s your biggest indulgence?

Related posts:
Spotlight on Melina Marchetta
Books & Happiness [or Books ARE Happiness]
My Bookish Bad Habit
Things That Make Life Easier for Readers

10 More Random Facts about Me

unsplash7.21. I am more scared of the slow ride to the top of the rollercoaster than of the rapid plummet down.

2. I always thought I’d leave Minnesota for college, but when I started visiting out-of-state schools, all I wanted was to be back in Minnesota.

3. My siblings and I were always creating clubs while growing up. We had the Friends Forever Club, the Exercise Club, and the Story Society.

4. Science fascinates me, but it’s the hardest subject for me to understand. This dates back to fourth grade when I couldn’t hook up wires and a battery the right way to make a light bulb light up. That’s the first and only thing I failed in school, kindergarten through undergrad.

5. My strengths themes are learner, input, achiever, strategy, and ideation.

6. I have a German and Irish heritage.

7. I love being a writer and would never trade those skills– but I very much wish I was a visual artist as well.

8. I have a very strong interest in etymology, especially in onomastics, the study of proper names.

9. For most of my life, I’ve had a curiously strong memory, to the point where it shocks people.

10. I’m quite claustrophobic. My nightmares often involve tight, closed spaces. I can barely stand the idea of being underwater or in space.

The Beginnings of a Book

beginnings of a bookSometimes I let ideas come to me; sometimes I go out to find them.

Here’s what that looks like.

1) I start at BabyNames.com, looking for the names of my next set of characters. I love names, so this is perhaps not a shocker. I have a penchant for short names that are uncommon without being ridiculous. It’s hard to explain how I know when I’ve found the right name– I just DO. Sometimes it feels more like archaeology than creation, as if I am simply unearthing what was waiting to be found as opposed to inventing what was waiting to be fashioned.

2) Armed with my characters’ names, I go looking for their pictures. Thank you, Pinterest. I’ll peruse board after board of faces till I find the ones that match my names. This part of the process feels like sculpture. I’ll find a picture and realize, “Oh, she’s got red hair!” then another and “Oh, and gray eyes!” All the while I am chiseling an image out of a block of marble until I find the “aha!” photo and say, “There. That’s her.”

3) I like to have very, VERY large-scale idea of the plot– even if it’s just one sentence: girl in foster care falls in love. Or wards of the state experience hospice care. Or girl runs away with the carnival. I’m completely okay with leaving this idea zoomed out to 10,000 feet at this point.

4) Meanwhile, my characters need to have something they care about. Preferably it will be something I care about– at least enough to research and write about and live with for the next couple years. This search often involves Wikipedia and Quora, the public library and the university one.

5) Now I need a hook. What’s one fascinating idea these characters can explore? Again, lots and lots of research, including books of anecdotes, philosophy, mythology, symbolism, trivia. I read and read and read until something fits and I think, “Those are deep waters, and I’m ready to go from the shallow end into the depths.” At this point, I usually request one trillion library books and read everything I can find about this idea online.

6) I need to get to know my characters better, so I fill out two specific questionnaires about them. The first set of questions comes from Gotham Writers’ Workshop.  The second set is from this Yingle Yangle post. By the time I’ve finished filling these out, I usually have a whole boatload of ideas for scenes.

Then, after all this …

7) I finally start to write.

How about you? What are your earliest steps of writing stories?

Related posts:
Idea Factory
All In: Ideas & Writing
Fiction: How I Start

Is Mental Illness a Spiritual Issue?

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The question is complicated; my answer is too.

Yes and no.

As a Christian, I believe that basically everything is a spiritual issue because I believe in a sovereign God. My particular set of beliefs means that I believe that writing is a spiritual practice for me, that the food I eat represents my spiritual discipline, that my obsessive-compulsive disorder has a spiritual purpose (one that was hidden to me for many, many years) of refining me, showing me the beauty of freedom and the glory of grace. Because I am a spiritual person, all things are spiritual to me. There is no way that I can separate my OCD from my experience of Christ because it is so clearly evident to me the way that God has worked in my life through my mental illness, recovery from it, and subsequent advocacy. I would be a liar if I tried to tried to divorce these two items in my own head and heart and speech.

But I also believe that mental illness is an illness like any other. Just as I wouldn’t hyper-spiritualize someone’s fight with cancer or diabetes or even a common cold, so I wouldn’t approach mental illness as anything other than a medical illness. I wouldn’t assume that someone got pneumonia as a direct result of their sin … or that they were spiritually unfit … or that something demonic was going on. I feel the same way about OCD and other anxiety disorders. I feel no shame– spiritual or otherwise– over my OCD, just as I wouldn’t feel ashamed if I were to break a bone. (Granted, it’s taken me a long time to get to this point; a heaping side of shame comes quite standard with your plate of religious scrupulosity!)

So, do I pray about OCD? Yes, of course. But I pray about my headaches too.

I realize that this is a touchy subject for many people, and I hope that I’ve presented my thoughts in a balanced way. Because I believe that so many people would misinterpret my “yes,” I usually bellow out a resounding “no,” but in this post, I wanted to try to delineate my thoughts on each. I’d love to hear your thoughts and continue this conversation, and I hope that you’ll extend grace to me as I try to tiptoe through this minefield!

Related posts:
Unashamed
OCD, ERP, & Christianity
Why I Believe in God
God’s Sovereignty, OCD, the Cross, & His Purposes

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Four Thoughts on the Writing Life

writinglifeIt’s so lonely.

Writing is quite solitary. Even though I am part of a writing community– and have so much support and collaboration with dear friends– in the end, I have to do the work alone. I can’t explain just how alone I have felt over the last month or so, especially being single. Theoretically, I understand that even if I were dating or married, I would still have to do the hard work of revisions on my own, but … I’ve felt a little untethered and singular. Very, very much solo in this treacherous territory.

It’s so hard.

Harder than I ever imagined. I’m not referring only to the actual act of writing here … but to the head game. I get to a point where I start to hate my manuscript … my beloved story that I’ve poured my soul, energy, and tears into. Do you know how crippling that is– how it folds your spirit into such ugly shapes that you worry you’ll never sort yourself out again? I’m back in therapy, folks.

But I still want it.

Things got pretty dark– to the point where I started questioning my identity as a writer, ultimately asking myself, Is this really what I want? There, in the darkness, I saw a pinprick of light: the certainty that my answer was yes.

And I’m not really alone.

My lovely new therapist asked me to picture the Holy Spirit sitting beside me, looking at our manuscript, saying, Look what we’ve made. It made me bawl. Of course. I so desperately want to honor God with my fiction. The thought of him looking on my manuscript with pride was such a reminder to me that no matter how lonely this road seems, I have a faithful companion.

Related posts:
Writing is Hard … but Worth It (I Think)
Writing and/or Life, Both Hard
The Good & Bad of Writing
Being Single and Writing a Book

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20 Life Lessons Since College

life lessons since college1. Acting like a know-it-all in college is silly.

2. On this green earth, I will always be a work in progress.

3. There are so many more shades of gray than I ever imagined.

4. Grace, grace, grace: be generous with it, both for myself and for others.

5. Love is messy.

6. Carefully choose which hills are worth dying on.

7. Quit pretending like you don’t have issues and start working through them.

8. Everyone has issues.

9. I am good company, on my own.

10. “‘No’ is a complete sentence.” (Anne Lamott)

11. Boundaries are amazing.

12. Craigslist rocks if you’re patient enough.

13. Start saving money immediately.

14. Investing in a reliable car will save you a lot of time, money, and hassle.

15. Get a great mattress. And memory foam.

16. Paying extra for a garage is absolutely worth it (in Minnesota).

17. Get the rice at Chipotle.

18. Treat yo’ self.

19. You will absolutely not win the contests you don’t enter. Enter, ask, risk.

20. Freedom begets freedom.

 

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Querying Literary Agents: My Story

querying literary agentsIf you are a writer and are interested in traditional publishing (as opposed to self-publishing), you’ll need a literary agent. Very few publishers these days will read unsolicited manuscripts, but editors will look at manuscripts that come from a literary agent they trust. An agent thus is the the “middle man” that you need in order to get your story in the hands of editors.

I’m no expert on querying, but I can share my own experience and how I went about it.

WARNING: THIS POST IS GOING TO BE LONG AND DETAILED.

First, I had to learn about writing a query letter. Writing a query letter is an entirely different beast from writing a novel and– in some ways– harder. You have to take off your regular writer hat and put on one that is more suited to someone in business, specifically marketing. You also have to boil an entire book down into one or two sentences. I learned most of what I know about query letters from Rachelle Gardner’s blog.

I suggest you start with these posts:
How to Write a Query Letter
Writing a One-Sentence Summary
Top Ten Query Mistakes

I also spent a considerable amount of time reading the query critiques at Query Shark. In addition, I read successful query letters (along with agent commentary) in Writer’s Digest Guide to Query Letters.

Query letters consist of “the hook, the book, the cook.” In other words, your book in one flashy, catchy sentence or phrase, your book in a paragraph or two, and your author’s bio. The hardest part? The hook. HANDS DOWN.

Here are some YA books and their hook:

Divergent: One choice can transform you
Awaken: Death is just getting warmed up
My Life Next Door: A boy.  A secret.  A choice.
Under the Never Sky: A million ways to die. One way to live.

After tons of research, I drafted a query letter. Then another draft. Then another. I worked on my query for maybe a couple months. I tried various hooks out on my friend Elyse.

Here were some of my discarded ideas for Truest‘s hook:

Three friends.  Two choices.  One summer.
When static is in the air, lightning is bound to strike.

Second, I had to research which agents to query. I wanted a long list; I told myself I wanted the list to be 100 agents long– my final list had 101 on it.

I started with Writer’s Digest Guide to Literary Agents. I went through the entire directory of agents (more than once) and, when I found an agency that represented YA fiction, I went to the agency’s website and researched the agency and the various agents, choosing which one would be best for me to query, and adding him/her to my agent spreadsheet.  On my spreadsheet, I listed the agency name, the agent I’d chosen as the best fit for me and Truest, any notes on the agent or agency that I wanted to remember or could reference in my query letter*, a link to the submission guidelines, and what “tier” this agent would be in for me (I made four tiers).

* For example, “mentions YA, religion, and LWW” (of course I would personalize my query to mention how much I also loved The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe!), “dark and/or funny YA project” (this would turn into “I saw on your website that you were looking for a dark and/or funny YA project. I believe Truest is both.”), “Rainbow Rowell’s agent” (I would mention how much I love RR’s work), etc. This allows me to connect personally with the agent and prove I’ve done my research.

I also found out about a lot of newer agents through the Writer’s Digest Guide to Literary Agents BLOG. It has a New Agent Alert!

I looked in the acknowledgements of my favorite books to see the author thank his or her agent– then pounced on the websites, did my research, continued to fill out the spreadsheet.

I also used the “backward search” of Query Tracker, which let me look up an author and then would show me whom their agent was.  Then again, more online research, more additions for the spreadsheet.

Also, I needed to write a synopsis and an author bio. These items, along with my query, my spreadsheet, my resume, and sample chapters were all the items I needed to query.

Then, I put them all together. Personalize every query. Revisit the submission guidelines and send anything they needed. Some wanted just the query, some wanted query + synopsis + three chapters, some wanted query + bio + ten pages, some wanted everything. One asked for an entire proposal, which I had no idea how to create, but I found a sample on Rachelle Gardner’s blog and figured it out! I prayed before every one before I clicked send.

I started by querying tier one and two. (I didn’t want to feel forced to accept a tier three or four agent before I’d given the top tiers a fair shot!  And thankfully, I didn’t have to dip into tier three or four, hooray!)

The first response came that same night, asking for the full manuscript! After that, I started to get requests for the entire manuscript or the first fifty pages or more information about myself. I followed instructions explicitly, prayed my heart out, and hoped like mad.

Here is the query letter I sent to Steven, who would eventually become my agent (and I’m adding “hook, book, cook, connect” to try to delineate it further– those words were [obviously] not in the actually query):

Dear Mr. Chudney:

Summer love, small-town secrets—and the darker side of philosophy. (HOOK)

Seventeen-year-old Westlin Beck is dreading this last summer before her senior year, but everything changes when the Hart twins move into town.  Silas, a prodigious young writer, is friendly with everyone but West, and Laurel, his mysterious sister, appears to be sick with an illness no one—and especially not Silas—will discuss. Forced to team up with Silas in a summer business, West and Silas begin to forge a friendship (and maybe something more).  But when West comes face-to-face with Laurel’s devastating secret, the summer changes into a rescue mission—one with unexpected results.

TRUEST is a coming-of-age young adult novel that explores dark themes with humor and redemption—and is told in alternating tenses: both before and after the summer’s tragic conclusion.  It is complete at 77,000 words. (BOOK)

I will begin my MFA program at Vermont College of Fine Arts in January.  I have been honored to be published in multiple literary journals, to be selected as a recent recipient of an artist residency, and to be chosen as a winner of an international creative expression contest.  I also author the Lights All Around blog, which averages over xxxx individual views each month. (COOK)

I noticed on your website that you are open to stories about spirituality but not religion.  As my definition may vary from yours, I am submitting my query to you, as my story has deep themes of faith though the characters are not interested in the rule-keeping of traditional religion.  Please let me know if you would be interested in reading part or all of TRUEST.  Thank you, and I look forward to hearing from you. (CONNECT)

 

From there, Steven asked me to snail mail him the first fifty pages, along with the answers to some questions on his website. I did. He read them and asked for me to mail the rest of the manuscript. I did.

27 days after I sent that initial query, I got this email:

Dear Jackie, I have competed reading your novel, and I really enjoyed it! You’re a wonderful writer, and I’m so glad you thought of me for this novel. The writing is really strong, and although the structure is non-linear, you handle that very nicely (reminding me of the novel 34 Pieces of You I had worked on). I’ll be curious to see one day how editors feel about the amount of religion in the novel, too.

Thus, I’d like to make you an offer of representation, and hope we can soon have a conversation about that and your lovely novel. I’m attaching my agency’s agreement here for your review. If your schedule is open, let’s talk on Thursday or Friday.
All the best, Steven

And after that my story of querying turns into a story of getting a book deal. (!!!)

 

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How to Write AND Have a Life [from someone who is still figuring it out]

time management3A lot of people have asked how I manage to pack so much in: writing, blogging, reading, working full-time, while maintaining relationships with friends and family. I’m by no means an expert– and since I’m single and don’t have kids, my minutes aren’t swallowed by family demands– but here are my thoughts on the matter.

1. Learn to say no. I had to learn how to STOP making plans I didn’t want to keep. I’m so, so blessed to have a huge circle of friends, but when my writing life gets wild, only my inner circle makes it onto my schedule.

2. Be upfront with your friends. When things are crazy with revisions, I tell my friends right away that I’m going to be MIA for a while. Thankfully, I have incredibly gracious friends who respect that!

3. Schedule your blog posts. I hammer out a month’s worth of blog posts in about two or three evenings. Then, like the Showtime Rotisserie Grill, I can “set it and forget it” for another month. Yes, that’s right– I post about 12-15 times a month, but I only work on my blog posts for a couple days. I am always collecting ideas for blog posts and adding them to my blog ideas list on Wunderlist (see #4). Then, about halfway through each month, I will go into my blog, set the schedule and write the title for the entire next month’s blog posts. Over the course of the next day or so, I will systematically go through all those pre-programmed, pre-titled posts and write the actual post. The only other post I have to worry about is my “Dear Diary” post at the end of the month, where I summarize what I’ve been up to.

4. Make lists. I use Wunderlist, and I’ve detailed the amazingness of that here.

5. Listen to audiobooks. I listen during almost any mundane activity I do, most notably driving. Or else I’m calling my mom. Double-duty those commutes!

6. Writing sabbaths. I don’t let myself write on Mondays (usually after a tempestuous weekend full of it). I try to set aside Monday evenings for reading.

7. Overcommunicate. Again, I’m so lucky to have friends to whom I can explain, “I’d love to get coffee and catch up, but I can only stay for two hours.” I often set really clear parameters for what I have time for– not always, but when I’m especially busy.

8. Nap. I wouldn’t be able to power through everything if I didn’t sneak in naps wherever I can find time.

9. Stay connected to God. For me, a necessity. While I try to pray consistently, I find that I actually pray far more when I’m in depths of a creative project … that would be the very worst time for me to disregard my direct connection to the one who embodies creativity. (In fact, when I am doing intense writing or revision, I usually begin with a time of communion with Christ and any time I get stuck or scared or confused or need to brainstorm, it’s back to the prayer journal. I do the majority of my brainstorming with God. Ask me about it.)

10. Turn off the TV. I almost never watch TV, though I will take in an episode of Law & Order: SVU if my roommate is watching and I’m doing something else simultaneously (researching, for example). I can’t write with the TV on or while watching a movie.

11. Sacrifice. I just can’t do everything I want to do. This, I believe, is just part of the artistic life.

 

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