We Need to Talk by Taylor Griggs

Most controversial/edgiest submission to date in Crux Literary Journal’s short history!

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He hadn’t seen her naked in a year and three days; he had kept careful count in his misery, in his loneliness, in his anger and rage and horror and careful, calculated, intricate sadness that had nicked his heart moment by moment like a metronome with a blade.  She had left—she had said all those things, and then she had left …

But she was here now.  Did it matter, everything else?  There was a part of him screaming that he needed to sit down and talk through things, to sort everything neatly into the appropriate categories, to hear the words “I’m sorry” and “I forgive you,” even though he wasn’t sure which phrase really belonged to which of them—maybe each to both.

But he couldn’t think, could hardly breathe.  Didn’t want to think.  Just wanted to be with her, touching her, letting their skin press together, letting their…

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Books Featuring Travel

Top Ten Tuesday is a weekly meme over at The Broke and the Bookish.  Today’s topic is

TOP TEN BOOKS FEATURING TRAVEL.travel2

10. The Knife of Never Letting Go by Patrick Ness | Does “escaping” count as travel?  Todd and Viola are fleeing an army from Prentisstown on their way to the safety (they hope!) of Haven.

9. The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis | Especially Voyage of the Dawn Treader (destination: the end of the world)!

8. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green | Amsterdam, baby!

7. Under the Never Sky by Veronica Rossi | Aria and Perry making the hazardous journey through “the Death Shop,” the unprotected world outside her biosphere!

travel6. East of Eden by John Steinbeck | From Connecticut to the Salinas Valley, though the journey is not the main feature of this story, as it is in Steinbeck’s The Grapes of Wrath.

5. Finnikin of the Rock by Melina Marchetta | Finn has been trapped outside of Lumatere for 10 years, but there are rumors that the Lumeteran king is still alive, so he and the young novice Evanjalin begin a crazy journey back.  So good.

4. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J.K. Rowling | The only book of the series that doesn’t take place primarily at Hogwarts, this book was at first frustrating to me but has grown to become my favorite of the lot!

3. The Last Unicorn by Peter Beagle | Our magician-cook-and-unicorn trio makes its way toward King Haggard’s country … and toward the Red Bull.

2. Perelandra by C.S. Lewis | Dr. Ransom travels to Venus!  Fascinating novel that will make your brain hurt.

1. Peace Like a River by Leif Enger | Reuben, his sister Swede, and their dad set off across Minnesota and North Dakota to find Davy, their outlaw brother/son!

 

 

Preparing for ERP Therapy

Lately, I’ve been talking to some brave, amazing people who are planning to tackle cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), specifically exposure and response prevention therapy (ERP).  I know it’s the right next step, they tell me.  Any advice?

Glad you asked.  Here are my suggestions as you prepare for ERP.

1. Read and research!  Don’t go into this (incredible but difficult) therapy with your eyes closed.  I believe that the more you know about what ERP entails and what will be expected of you, the better.  In fact, I have a friend who had done enough research on it that he realized only one or two sessions in that he knew more about ERP than the therapist did– instead of wasting time, my friend was able to stop meeting with that therapist and find an expert in ERP.

2. Have an open heart.  ERP is not the same as talk therapy.  You will be given homework and made to go through exposures that are intended to spike your anxiety.  Before I started ERP, my psychiatrist gave me this advice: “Think of a mother, Jackie.  A mother would do anything to help her child.  You must be willing to do anything to help yourself.”  By its very nature, you will be expected to do things that you do not want to do (AT ALL).  Do them anyway.

3. Surround yourself with the RIGHT support system.  What you need are cheerleaders, people who will be your biggest fans and encouragers.  What you absolutely do NOT need are enablers– because they will only be hindering the ERP process.  Educate your closest friends about what ERP entails and ask them upfront to not baby you or enable your OCD.  When they offer you reassurance or do anything to enable your obsessions and compulsions, they are siding with your disorder against you, instead of with you against your disorder.  This is going to be hard for both sides.  Tough love is not fun … but it is good.

4. If you’re the kind of person who prays, pray hard.

For those of you who have experienced ERP, what advice would you add?

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Young at Heart

childrensstoryDid you know that 55% of the people purchasing YA books are 18 and older?

I did.  I’m one of them. 🙂

Know what else?  I think I enjoy The Chronicles of Narnia more and more with each year I add to my age.

I write YA primarily for teenagers, but I hope to write in such a way that my stories will appeal to adults too.

I’d love to hear your thoughts on this!

Jackie’s Family

Random 5 Friday is a weekly meme over at A Rural Journal.

Today I want to tell you five random facts about the Sommers family.

1) My parents, Tom and Ronda, are still deeply in love after 33 years of marriage.  The older I get, the more I realize how lucky/blessed I am to have had marriage modeled by two people who are best friends who are crazy about each other.

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2) I am so proud of my sister Kristin and brother Kevin for the way that they love God and people.  I could not have asked for two better siblings.

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3) When the five of us are together, we inevitably will end up around the table, playing cards.  Kevin will start to sing something completely random, and the rest of us will join us will join in until he changes tunes or we all start arguing or laughing or yelling at each other for holding out on that seven of clubs.

This is me, biting my brother's shoulder.  I don't know why either.

This is me, biting my brother’s shoulder. I don’t know why either.

4) I grew up on a hobby farm in Kimball, Minnesota, a town of 700.  Sometimes we had pigs, sometimes chickens, usually cows.  Plus a dog and about 40 cats, who lived in the barn.  The ones born in the summer would be tame and loving, and ones born in the winter would be wild and frightened of us.  Today, the old “hog house” is remodeled into a living space for my brother.  We like to tease that he belongs in the old pig barn.

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5) My family is hilarious and loud.  The boys tease me all the time for being a “loser” since I love to read and write … but I know they’re very proud of me and very supportive.

My dad and brother are basically the same person, just 33 years apart.

My dad and brother are basically the same person, just different ages.

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Just finished …

Quitter by Jon Acuff | I don’t review a lot of non-fiction on this blog, but this book was fantastic.  It’s about how to turn your day job into your dream job, and it was very wise … and funny.  Jon Acuff is the man behind the hilarious Stuff Christians Like blog!  If you’re in a funk at your day job, you should definitely pick up this book.  Acuff spoke at the university where I work this past fall and was wonderful, so when NoiseTrade gave a free audio download of Quitter, I jumped at the opportunity (even though I’m actually not in a funk at my day job … but I wish I’d read this book last summer!).

The Knife of Never Letting Go by Patrick Ness | I was excited to read another Patrick Ness book, since I liked A Monster Calls so much!  The Knife of Never Letting Go features protagonists a little younger than I usually like (Todd is about 13-14 … their years have 13 months, sooooo …), but I really loved it.  Todd lives on New World in a place called Prentisstown, where men can hear each others’ thoughts.  There are no women or girls; the plague that made men’s thoughts into noise killed off the females, Todd is told.  There’s a dark secret to Prentisstown, and as Todd approaches becoming a man, he finds himself on the run from a savage army.  Along with a girl, because, yup, they’re not actually all gone.  I’ve already started the second Chaos Walking book, The Ask and the Answerand I’m loving that one as well!

Across the Universe by Beth Revis | This book got rave reviews from teens, who chose it as a YALSA Teens Top Ten Book for 212.  It’s about a girl named Amy, who is cryogenically frozen with her family, who are all to be unfrozen when they reach Centuri-Earth, about 350 years later.  But Amy is unfrozen early and finds herself on spaceship run by lies.  It was interesting, for sure, and I’m intrigued to find out what happens in the rest of this trilogy, but I have to say that I wasn’t terribly impressed with the writing.  Also, it kinda features an annoying insta-love, leaving me wondering if Elder likes Amy for anything more than her amazing red hair.  Sigh.  Still, I think I’ll tarry on.  Just got the second book, A Million Suns, from the library.

The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker | A little different from my normal YA, this book is an adult novel about 12-year-old Julia, set in a time when the rotation of the earth began to slow.  It’s a very interesting take on the “disaster book”: instead of some calamitous event like a giant asteroid smacking into earth, what if the disaster is tiny and slow-going?  At first, the slowing of the earth only adds a couple extra minutes onto each day, but over the course of a year, daylight (and nighttime) stretch out much longer.  Great writing.  Fascinating concept.  A little slower than my usual, but that’s okay.  I still recommend it!

Let’s Explore Diabetes with Owls by David Sedaris | I love David Sedaris so freakin’ much.  The only book of his I didn’t really love was his one book of fiction, but I adore all his memoir!  This book doesn’t fail to delight as readers are treated to Sedaris’s dry and incredible humor as well as stories about the hilarious Sedaris family.  I recommend!

Chopsticks by Jessica Anthony and Rodrigo Corral | This book was fascinating because it wasn’t made of text but of photos and paraphernalia such as music programs, text messages, and postcards.  From that, I learned the love story of Glory and Frank.  I can’t wait for another friend of mine to “read” it so that we can compare stories and see if our interpretations were the same!

Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi | Okay, so I read this one in 19 hours, and that included 11 of them sleeping, ha!  So, yeah, I tore through this one.  It’s about a girl named Juliette whose touch is lethal.  This has always made her a freak, an outcast, and the story starts with her locked up in an asylum.  When a corrupt new government decides to use her power as a weapon, Juliette is thrown into a new world where it’s hard to know whom to trust.  But there is Adam.  Yeah.  He’s awesome.  The book is not without its faults though.  It’s distracting to always have her use actual numbers instead of spelling them out (3 vs. three), and I don’t love how she repeats repeats repeats words quite often.  Everything is a metaphor (I didn’t know there could be too many, but yes, I guess there can!).  There’s a lot of sexual energy in the book, as you might imagine would be true for a 17-year-old girl who can’t be touched.  All said, it’s not a perfect book, but it did draw me in– and quickly!  I can’t wait to read the next book, Unravel Me.  The third book doesn’t come out till February 2014 though!

David Small and Sarah Stewart were keynote speakers at a Children’s and YA Writing Conference I recently attended, and so sparked an interest in me for picture books.  I was quite pleased and impressed with Extra Yarn (written by Mac Barnett and illustrated by Jon Klassen), One Cool Friend (written by Toni Buzzeo and illustrated by David Small), and The Friend (written by Sarah Stewart and illustrated by David Small).  And it was a joy to re-read Imogen’s Antlers, written and illustrated by David Small, so many years after I’d originally read it.  I have a new appreciation for picture books and all the steps it takes to pull text and illustrations together into a beautiful, cohesive unit!

I also just finished reading through The Chronicles of Narnia.  Mmm, always Narnia.

Currently reading:

The Ask and the Answer by Patrick Ness

A Million Suns by Beth Revis

Power & Poetry

When the stars fall, then do they fall to you?
Do you collect them in your room, in your fists?

And is your blood red like ours,
or a string of lyrics, if you opened your vein?
The scar, the recipe for spring.

Your hesitations reinvent color.
Your choices taste like fireworks.

Your whispers, the ghosts of philosophers,
the ones who spoke truth as best they knew how.

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