So, after I posted about #heatintolerance the other day, my #AC went out.
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It’s fixed now, but there are still repurcussions. It’s noon, and I’m still in bed. My hands feel swollen, my hips kill, I slept 12 hours and finally feel like I could maybe make it down the stairs.
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I usually beat myself up on days like this, which is honestly silly. I know what happens when I pass a certain point in overheating. So why do I still feel surprised when exactly that happens??
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Adding insult to injury: my left eyelid is swollen. My body is so pissed at me for not getting an HVAC guy out on Tuesday and waiting till Wednesday. I’m sorry, body. Rest please. Have some spoons.
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Anyway, all this to say: yup, the heat intolerance formula still works! 😉 But I hope by resting today, SERIOUSLY RESTING, I will be back to business tomorrow.
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(I feel so guilty. My coworkers bear the brunt of this. They NEVER complain, but I still feel guilty.) Alas, with my #radicalacceptance experiment, I’ve committed to not shaming myself, so I need to just own that this is what it is, I couldn’t anticipate my AC breaking, I took action to fix it, and now I am taking action to fix my body. That’s all I can do, right?
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