writing lately

I have been working on a couple different things lately, some short stories and poems, and I have loved every minute of it.  When I lay awake in bed at night thinking of how I cannot wait to get back to work on my projects, I just know that I was created to write.  I have issues with writer envy (major issues), but I am trying to just become the best writer that I can be.  I will not be C.S. Lewis.  I can only be Jackie Lea Sommers.  But the more I work at being the best writer Jackie Lea Sommers can be and the less time I spend being envious of Markus Zusak and John Green, the more my own writing will improve.

Here is what I’m currently working on.

MADAM, MEET ADAM

When he woke, his sleep hung about him, heavy as a fog, and his side had a strange sensation as if it had been touched by something very, very cold—so cold he gasped as his body registered the local chill amidst all the afternoon heat of the garden.  His right side, mid-torso.  It had a peculiar tingle, although it did not hurt, and when he stood, he had the queerest impression that his insides had shifted.  This is new, he thought.  But he conceded, It all is.

He stood in the garden—green, although he did not know the word for the color yet, and full of nameless flowers and anonymous vegetation of every kind.  He wondered if it would fall to him to label them, just as he had named the creatures, that parade of beasts, his subjects over whom he’d uttered a pronouncement.  The first taste of creativity, that initial spark of imagination, and the names had spilled out of him as if inspired.  Even now, he had to admire the words—dog, swan, lamb, elephant.  The last had made him proud, those syllables erupting from his mouth when he had not known they were in him.

Fascination: the fleece, the fur, the feathers, the scales.  And some could hang suspended in the sky, and some could breathe beneath the waters.  It was true there was none quite like him, with almost translucent skin and blue rivers climbing each wrist, and while he could not exactly feel lonesome—nor could he fathom such a word—he did wonder at the animals’ companionship.  Of course, he had the Maker, and as they walked the garden in the cool of the day, he was perfectly happy, filled with love just the way his chest was filled with air.  It was impossible to want in the face of the joy and affection that spiked from the Maker, planting fearsome and holy barbs in his deepest core.

His side still blazed with that same cold tickle.  Examining it, he found there was the faintest mark along his ribcage, as if there had been an opening which had since been closed up, not like a stitch, but more like the smoothing of wet clay over a crack in the riverbank.  He had the vague impression of being a patched vessel.  He ran his fingers over the spot—cool to the touch, flush and silky, the color of the sand on the beach.

Something stirred nearby.  Curious, he noticed a creature lying beneath a beech tree, looking odd where it rested unrecognizable.  A beast he had missed?  His intrigue sparked as he approached and stared in awe at the creature by his feet: a biped, like himself.  Two long legs, a waist as smooth and perfect as fresh foam on the shore.  He could see the outline of ribs, like the ripple made when he’d tossed a stone into the water.  Two perfect peaks of flesh and the strange and sweet valleys above the collarbones.   The ivory neck, the soft shadow on the inside of the bicep, the dark hair that lay in glossy waves beneath the head.  Somehow this creature was at once just like him and nothing like himIt had its own secret.  He needed to know.

Without realizing what he was doing, he reached out, his hand drawn to that shadow below the breast to see if it was as cold as his.  When his hand pressed gently on its side, the creature’s eyes blinked wide, its mouth making a small “Oh!”  The eyes.  They were the newest of all creations, and yet in a moment he could see that that they knew more than all the beasts he had named.  The eyes were wide and welcoming and intelligent but not yet wise, and the long lashes fluttered as gently as the wings of the butterfly when it has alighted.  The being swallowed, and that slightest movement of the throat’s hollow made him ache—it was not pain but compassion, which he felt must be rolling off him like a billowing fog.

“Don’t be afraid,” he said, barely moving his mouth.

“I’m not,” it answered, the voice, valiant as an empress, sweet and certain as a schoolgirl.

“You can speak,” he said in surprise.

“Yes,” it agreed.  That voice!  Soft as the milkweed silk.  He had not known how desperately he had wanted to hear such a voice until he heard it stop.  That silence was the very first hole in paradise.

“What are you?” he asked.

“I am your partner,” it said, then touched his side.  The tiny hand warmed the spot.

“Flesh of my flesh,” he whispered, earth’s first poet.  “Bone of my bone.”

And then joy pressed hard against the man’s heart, for the Maker had joined them.  The man didn’t know the word, but he wanted to dance, to throw out his arms and spin in the garden’s sunlight.  It was too much—to have them both here.  His heart was full, too gloriously full; it was rupturing the way the apple buds had burst into blossoms.

“You may name her as well,” the Maker spoke to the man.

“Her?”

“Yes.  Her.  She.”

The secret.  It was brilliant and beautiful and profound.  He never knew if it was a minute or a month before the next came to him: “Woman.”

The woman smiled, the first smile in the history of the universe, and its splendor flabbergasted him—the curve of the lips, the flash of the strong, white teeth.  His world was unmade and reimagined in that brief but broad moment.

“This is your queen,” said the Maker, “and together you will make princes.”

He had to be near her, needed to touch her, had this strange desire to press his mouth against her body.  She was a gift made of bone, and he of clay.  They were naked and natural, organic in every way, the original man and wife making their way into the shade of the beech trees to celebrate God.

 

Week of the Lovely Lines: Friday

You knew I had to include Peace Like a River quotes this week, right?  How could I possibly share a week of lovely lines and not quote Leif Enger, whose brilliant fiction often reads like poetry?  He delights me on paper and is just as wonderful in person!

“I remember it as October days are always remembered, cloudless, maple-flavored, golden and so clean it quivers.” 

“When a person dies, the earth is generally unwilling to cough him back up. A miracle contradicts the will of earth.”

“Be careful whom you choose to hate. The small and the vulnerable own a protection great enough, if you could but see it, to melt you into jelly. Beware those who reside beneath the shadow of the Wings.” 

How about this from So Brave, Young, and Handsome:

“…for his life seemed a curving line, capricious, moment by moment inviting grace.” 

 

Week of the Lovely Lines: Thursday

What week of lovely lines would truly be complete without at least one poem?  Here, I present to you one of e.e. cummings’ best, with a stunning final line.  I remember re-reading this my second year of college, alone in my dorm, and the tears started just running down my face.  It was as if I were coming alive again, remembering why I loved words.

I sat on my roommate’s couch, reading and re-reading this poem.  It was like a gift.

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skillfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me,i and
my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

Week of the Lovely Lines: Wednesday

Today is a menagerie of utter gorgeousness taken from Peter Beagle’s book The Last Unicorn.  You can’t tiptoe your way through this book without bumping into beauty every few paragraphs.

“Your name is a golden bell hung in my heart. I would break my body to pieces to call you once by your name.” 

“He thought, or said, or sang, I did not know that I was so empty, to be so full.” 

“Another sound followed them long after these had faded, followed them into morning on a strange road – the tiny dry sound of a spider weeping.”

These flabbergast me.  He thought, or said, or sang … yes.  Yes.

Week of the Lovely Lines: Tuesday

Today’s lovely line comes from The Book Thief by Markus Zusak.  The first time I read this line, I thought I had never heard something prettier.  It still gets me every time.

“She was the book thief without the words.  Trust me, though, the words were on their way, and when they arrived, Liesel would hold them in her hands like the clouds, and she would wring them out like rain.

The image is pure genius.  If you can write a better line than that, I want to shake your hand.

Week of the Lovely Lines: Monday

  Do you ever encounter a line or a passage in a book that makes you shiver with delight, one that bends your mind, or (if you’re a writer) one that makes you so envious you could scream?  In all my years of reading, I have encountered some lines that just take my breath away every time I read them.  This week, I’m going to share them with you.

Today’s lines come from That Hideous Strength by C.S. Lewis.

“As the desert first teaches men to love water, or as absence first reveals affection, there rose up against this background of the sour and the crooked some kind of vision of the sweet and the straight. Something else – something he vaguely called the “Normal” – apparently existed…. It was all mixed up with Jane and fried eggs and soap and sunlight and the rooks cawing at Cure Hardy and the thought that, somewhere outside, daylight was going on at that moment. He was not thinking in moral terms at all; or else (what is much the same thing) he was having his first deeply moral experience. He was choosing a side: the Normal.”

Mmm … all those k-sounds!  Rooks cawing at Cure Hardy.  LOVE.

How about this:

“great syllables of words that sounded like castles came out of his mouth”

That sounded like castles.  I’m in love.

Jack Lewis, you are my hero.

contests and stuff

Lately, I have been entering as many writing contests as I can.  If it has no entry fee, and if I have something that I can re-work to fit the contest guidelines, then I’ve been going for it.

I am NOT keeping track of what I enter.

Why?  Because I don’t anticipate winning these contests, and I don’t want to get too wrapped up in whether or not I have.  If I do, they’ll let me know, and it will be a fun surprise.

And if I do, I’ll be sure to let you know too!!!

What have you been going for in life lately?  Any new dreams or goals?

last week

I meant to post last week; I really did!

But I was having the time of my life … I spent the week in Hudson, Wisconsin, in a tiny apartment above a garage.  It was quaint– just what I needed!

Every day, I would wake up, get ready for the day, and then get down to business: WRITING.  I spent probably 12+ hours a day working on the young adult novel I’m writing.  To some people, that sounds like a description of HELL.

But I loved it!  Writing is so energizing to me– and challenging and rewarding and spiritual.

I am very nearly finished with a new draft of my story.  Would you like to meet one of the characters?  His name is Silas.

Here’s a brief excerpt (West and Silas are partners for the summer doing car detailing):

Silas and I spent the rest of that week together, and I quickly determined that he was absolutely crazy—but the very best kind.  One morning he showed up at my house wearing an honest-to-goodness windbreaker suit straight out of the 90’s, purple, mint green, and what is best described as neon salmon.  I could feel the goofy grin on my face while Silas gathered our supplies from my garage.  “What?” he deadpanned.  “What are you staring at?”

I rolled my eyes but played along.  “Your windbreaker is just so …”

“Fetching?” he interjected.  “Voguish?  Swanky?”

“Hot,” I said.  “Just all out sexy.  Screw trends.  The 90’s neon just exudes sex appeal.”

“Well, I thought so myself.”

And after the sun was high in the sky and the pavement was heating up, he took off the windsuit, revealing shorts and a New Moon t-shirt beneath, Edward Cullen’s pale face dramatically screenprinted on the front.  “Vader’s competition,” he said, shrugged, and started vacuuming the floors of the Corolla left in our care.

He talked about the strangest things.  “Can you ever really prove anything?  How?” or “I read about this composer who said his abstract music went ‘to the brink’—that beyond it lay complete chaos.  What would that look like?  Complete chaos?” or “A group of moles is called a labor; a group of toads is called a knot.  Who comes up with this stuff?  It’s a bouquet of pheasants, a murder of crows, a storytelling of ravens, a lamentation of swans.  A lamentation of swans, West!”

We sat in the backseat of a dusty Saturn one afternoon, trading off the handheld vacuum as we talked—or rather, shouted—over its noise.  I ran the hand-vac over the back of the driver’s seat, while Silas said, “I used to think I was the only one with a crush on Emily Dickinson until a couple years ago.”

“You have a crush on Emily Dickinson?”

Durrrr.

“Did you just ‘durr’ me?  Is that like a ‘duh’?”

He nodded as I handed him the Dirt Devil.  “But then I read this Don Miller book that says it’s a rite of passage for any thinking American man.  I still wasn’t a hundred percent sure, but then I read this Billy Collins poem called ‘Taking Off Emily Dickinson’s Clothes.’”

Just the title made me blush.

Silas, unruffled, continued, “The end of it talks about how he could hear her inhale and sigh when he undid the top fastener of her corset, ‘the way some readers sigh when they realize/that Hope has feathers,/that reason is a plank,/that life is a loaded gun/that looks right at you with a yellow eye.’”

Silas sighed unhappily.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I finally made it into the backseat with a girl,” Silas cracked, looking hard at the Dirt Devil.  “This is not all I was hoping it would be.”

I slugged him in the arm while his wry smile gave way to laughter.

Any thoughts?

another Narnia poem

… since I’m the biggest nerd you know.

SUSAN OF NARNIA

You cannot convince me that you have wholly erased
the lamp-post, the summer constellations, the Lion Himself.
You were there, saw the knife, heard the table crack like a giant’s plate.
When your great desire stood before you like a golden beacon,
how could you turn from joy to other invitations?
I refuse to believe that you have plucked from your deepest heart
righted wrong, vanished sorrows, the very death of winter.
You will awaken one day, I am sure, when pain claps your heart,
when British railways tear up your world of nylons and lipstick.
Grief will bring you back to solid ground, to your first love.
After all, once a queen, always a queen.