contests and stuff

Lately, I have been entering as many writing contests as I can.  If it has no entry fee, and if I have something that I can re-work to fit the contest guidelines, then I’ve been going for it.

I am NOT keeping track of what I enter.

Why?  Because I don’t anticipate winning these contests, and I don’t want to get too wrapped up in whether or not I have.  If I do, they’ll let me know, and it will be a fun surprise.

And if I do, I’ll be sure to let you know too!!!

What have you been going for in life lately?  Any new dreams or goals?

last week

I meant to post last week; I really did!

But I was having the time of my life … I spent the week in Hudson, Wisconsin, in a tiny apartment above a garage.  It was quaint– just what I needed!

Every day, I would wake up, get ready for the day, and then get down to business: WRITING.  I spent probably 12+ hours a day working on the young adult novel I’m writing.  To some people, that sounds like a description of HELL.

But I loved it!  Writing is so energizing to me– and challenging and rewarding and spiritual.

I am very nearly finished with a new draft of my story.  Would you like to meet one of the characters?  His name is Silas.

Here’s a brief excerpt (West and Silas are partners for the summer doing car detailing):

Silas and I spent the rest of that week together, and I quickly determined that he was absolutely crazy—but the very best kind.  One morning he showed up at my house wearing an honest-to-goodness windbreaker suit straight out of the 90’s, purple, mint green, and what is best described as neon salmon.  I could feel the goofy grin on my face while Silas gathered our supplies from my garage.  “What?” he deadpanned.  “What are you staring at?”

I rolled my eyes but played along.  “Your windbreaker is just so …”

“Fetching?” he interjected.  “Voguish?  Swanky?”

“Hot,” I said.  “Just all out sexy.  Screw trends.  The 90’s neon just exudes sex appeal.”

“Well, I thought so myself.”

And after the sun was high in the sky and the pavement was heating up, he took off the windsuit, revealing shorts and a New Moon t-shirt beneath, Edward Cullen’s pale face dramatically screenprinted on the front.  “Vader’s competition,” he said, shrugged, and started vacuuming the floors of the Corolla left in our care.

He talked about the strangest things.  “Can you ever really prove anything?  How?” or “I read about this composer who said his abstract music went ‘to the brink’—that beyond it lay complete chaos.  What would that look like?  Complete chaos?” or “A group of moles is called a labor; a group of toads is called a knot.  Who comes up with this stuff?  It’s a bouquet of pheasants, a murder of crows, a storytelling of ravens, a lamentation of swans.  A lamentation of swans, West!”

We sat in the backseat of a dusty Saturn one afternoon, trading off the handheld vacuum as we talked—or rather, shouted—over its noise.  I ran the hand-vac over the back of the driver’s seat, while Silas said, “I used to think I was the only one with a crush on Emily Dickinson until a couple years ago.”

“You have a crush on Emily Dickinson?”

Durrrr.

“Did you just ‘durr’ me?  Is that like a ‘duh’?”

He nodded as I handed him the Dirt Devil.  “But then I read this Don Miller book that says it’s a rite of passage for any thinking American man.  I still wasn’t a hundred percent sure, but then I read this Billy Collins poem called ‘Taking Off Emily Dickinson’s Clothes.’”

Just the title made me blush.

Silas, unruffled, continued, “The end of it talks about how he could hear her inhale and sigh when he undid the top fastener of her corset, ‘the way some readers sigh when they realize/that Hope has feathers,/that reason is a plank,/that life is a loaded gun/that looks right at you with a yellow eye.’”

Silas sighed unhappily.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I finally made it into the backseat with a girl,” Silas cracked, looking hard at the Dirt Devil.  “This is not all I was hoping it would be.”

I slugged him in the arm while his wry smile gave way to laughter.

Any thoughts?

a room of one’s own

Have you read the book?  Virginia Woolf wrote a whole book (compiled, I think, from some lectures she gave) based on the premise that in order for a woman to write, she needed two things: 1) an incandescent mind (freedom from worrying about life) and 2) money (in other words, a room of one’s own).

My freshman year of college I wrote a research paper that violently argued against this idea– a very convincing and well-written paper, if I do say so myself.

Years later, I began to doubt myself and agree with old Virgie.  Man oh man, if only I had enough money so that I wouldn’t have to worry about how to support myself (how to pay rent, how to buy groceries, which career option is best, etc.), I think I would write SO WELL.

Anyway, this is my public apology to Virginia Woolf.  Although I still think she was wrong to attack Charlotte Bronte.

my creative process

This is what mine looks like:

1) Freewriting.  With or without prompts, I just write like a maniac and try not to censor myself at all (which often results in some of my best ideas).  While freewriting, I am shocked to meet characters whom I never intended to write about, whom I am meeting for the very first time as I type.  I am surprised by what my characters say and do and the events that occur while I am writing without censorship.  Granted, this draft usually makes little or no sense, can stop in the middle of a sentence, and will include scenes that will never make it past this stage.  Themajority of this draft will disappear by the end.

2) Organizing.  I look back through the junk I’ve generated and try to make some sort of sense out of it.

3) Editing.  Now back through it again to make it look and sound better.  Cut excess words, add better imagery.  I am terrible at description and don’t include it very naturally, so at this stage, I’ll try to graft some into the paragraphs so that others can see what I’m seeing.

4) Feedback.  A MUST.  At this stage, my writing group and some select other friends will need to look it over, or I can’t go any further with the piece.  I NEED constructive criticism and outside eyes to tell me what works and what doesn’t.  I need people to tell me “I don’t think Joey would say such-and-such” or “if Stacy finds out about that secret that early, you won’t have any tension in your story.”

5) Repeat steps 1-4.  For a long time, maybe years.  And I pray about what I’m writing too.  I ask God to move me in the right direction with my stories.

What does your creative process look like?

my top 10 non-fiction books

1. Traveling Mercies by Anne Lamott
2. Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller
3. The Problem of Pain by C.S. Lewis
4. Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
5. Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott
6. A Million Miles in a Thousand Years by Donald Miller
7. A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis
8. For the Time Being by Annie Dillard
9. Walking from East to West by Ravi Zacharias
10. Traveling Light by Eugene Peterson

Okay, I’m not sure that in the end I got everything in the right order.  What are your thoughts?  Which ones did you love?  Which books would you include on this list?

Introducing my new novel!

Soooo … did you know that I am working on my second novel?  This time around it is young adult literature.  I’ve read a lot of YA lit, but this is my first real attempt at writing it.  I thought I’d introduce you to my story and see what you think.  Any and all feedback is welcome!

CHAPTER ONE

Once a month, my dad takes holy communion to the members of our church who aren’t able to make it to Sunday services.  Most are older folks from Legacy House, the assisted living home in town, but some are those whose wings have been temporarily clipped by bronchitis or a broken hip.  Dad, Pastor Kerry Beck of Green Lake Community Church, reads from the Bible before he shares communion with them.  A striking number of them manage to spill their tiny little plastic cups—miniature shot glasses, really—of grape juice on their shirts, and when they take the tab of bread, they seem to chew it and chew it as if it were a steak.

This particular day, the second Sunday in June, I tagged along on his communion route.  What else was there to do?  The day before I’d waved goodbye to my best friend Trudy, who was abandoning me our last summer before senior year for a counselor-in-training position at a Wisconsin adventure camp.  She drove east toward the Saturday morning sun and the land of the cheeseheads while I sat dejected on my front porch, a stack of already-stamped postcards addressed to Trudy Kirkwood, in care of Camp Summit, resting on my knees.  Without her, I’d been bored within an hour.

And besides, a few concentrated hours with my father was like accidentally finding a diamond in your cereal box.  Pastor, city council member, and coach of my brother’s summer t-ball team—I barely saw him unless he was behind the pulpit or yelling “stay on second!” to third-graders with poor athletic judgment.

At Legacy House, Dad and I first visited Betty Thorman, who uses a walker around her apartment—the kind with the tennis balls on the back legs for easier gliding, and also Marcheline Von Wald, who has dementia and sometimes thinks I’m her daughter, which always creeps me out a little bit, to be honest.  But it’s worth it, because I know the next stop is always Gordon’s apartment.

Gordon Leimbach is blind and closing in on ninety but still sharp as a tack from his days as a university professor.  He sits in his rocking chair and listens to audio books most of the day.  He even smokes a pipe, which absolutely delights me.  I picture him as a sightless Oxford don.

When Gordon answered his door, he knew who’d come to visit.  “Welcome, welcome!  Hello Pastor Beck.  Is that Westie-girl with you today?”

“I’m here, Gordon,” I said.

“Come on in,” he said.  He walked confidently—if not a little hunched—back into his living room and sat down in his rocker.  Gordon knew the layout of his apartment perfectly well, so long as no one moved anything.  “Westie, what did you think of Wednesday’s broadcast?”

My dad rolled his eyes good-naturedly at the companionship between me and Gordon, who shared a love for a weeknight radio talk show called August Arms, a half-hour story collection.  “Was that the one about the stuntman from Canada?” I asked.

“No, no, that was Thursday.  Wednesday was the story on the hummingbird.  Pastor Beck, did West here tell you that hummingbirds are the only birds who can fly backward?”  Gordon wore dark black glasses and kept his silver hair short.

“She did not,” said my dad, who was always amused by Gordon.

I tossed my two-cents in.  “And their wings move in the pattern of the infinity circle.  And on really cold nights, they go into this weird temporary hibernation.”

“Yep,” agreed Gordon, “and some people think seeing a hummingbird means someone you know is going to die soon.”

I drew a line across my neck, making the characteristic noise of a cut throat, and hung out my tongue as if to demonstrate.  Gordon laughed.  “I can picture the face you’re making!” he said.

“Yeah, it’s lovely,” my dad deadpanned as he smiled.  “So, what have you been up to, Gordon?”

“Always learning, Pastor Beck.  Always learning.  Just started teaching myself Spanish through the YouTube.  And listening to The Chronicles of Narnia on compact disc and dreaming about heaven and seeing Mavis again.  El señor, prisa el día.

The YouTube.  Compact disc.  You had to love Gordon.

“Westie, will I see you much this summer?” Gordon asked me.  “I mean, of course, figuratively.”

I laughed.  “I’ll be around.”

“Car detailing again?”

“I guess,” I said.

“She’s bummed because the Tru part of TruWest Detailing is spending the summer in Wisconsin,” my dad explained.

“Trudy’s at an adventure camp,” I disparaged.  “She left me friendless and without a business partner.”

“Haven’t you learned anything from August Arms and all your reading, Westie?”  I waited.  “With a set-up like that—static in the air—lightning is bound to strike.”

 

I thought we’d head home after the Legacy House, but Dad said there was one more stop.

“Oh,” I said.  “Where at?”

“Some new folks in town,” he said.  “The Harts.  Just moved into the old Griggs house over in Heaton Ridge.”

“All right.”

The town of Green Lake, Minnesota, is shaped like a right-handed mitten—our church and house, as well as downtown, is within the palm, and the more residential area is where the fingers would be.  The long thumb is called Heaton Ridge, the pricey part of town, and the actual lake for which the town is named is nestled in the crook of the thumb like webbing.  Green River flows out of Green Lake and cuts across like a thumb-ring, so that anyone going into or out of Heaton Ridge has to take a bridge.  It’s like their own version of a gated community.

The old Griggs house—or rather, the new Hart house—was nice in comparison to most of the other houses in Green Lake, even amongst those in Heaton Ridge.  Mr. Griggs had invented some sort of clamp that was used in the farming community, and the royalties from that alone were more than the Griggs family needed to live on.  But when Mrs. Griggs’s lupus got out of control, the family moved to Arizona for the warmer weather, and the house had sat empty for the last year and a half.  No one in town could afford it.

It was a relatively new home—about 15-20 years old—and nice but not ludicrous.  It dwarfed the other homes in the neighborhood and was rumored to have a rooftop patio with a custom masonry fire pit worth twelve thousand dollars.  So maybe mildly ludicrous.

We rang the doorbell and waited.  Inside, I could hear a voice yell, “Got it!” and footsteps approaching.  The huge oak door opened, and there stood the most beautiful boy I’d ever seen in my life.  A perfect jawline, incredible lips, and a thick, dark mop of hair that made him look like some kind of 21st century teenage Beatle.  His cheerful eyes looked at us as if we’d come a-caroling.

“Hey there.  You must be Silas!” my dad said.  “Kerry Beck.  This is my daughter West.”

Hi,” I said, wide-eyed.  “I’m West.”

Silas laughed at my redudancy.  “So I’ve heard!  Come on in.  Mom!  Dad!”  He was tall—maybe six-foot-two or  -three—and he wore a well-worn t-shirt that said “PRACTICE SAFE LUNCH: Use a Condiment,” which seemed a little out of place in this house but made me giggle.  “Sunroom is this way.”

Silas led me and Dad into the “sunroom”—which was the humble word for what was actually an extravagant conservatory: glass-paned walls and ceiling, vaulted and with white beams.  There was the palest bamboo floor, a white rug made of something suspiciously like polar bear fur, and perfect white wicker furniture.  Sitting on the couch was a princess.

I blinked.  The girl was young—about my age—and she offered a faint smile to me and my dad.  Her hair was the color of golden honey, and with the afternoon sun shining down through the conservatory ceiling panels, she was glowing like an angel.  She had perfect peach lips, high cheekbones, dramatic eyebrows, and a pale oval face.  I was so thrown by her stunning presence that it took me several moments to realize that this princess was wearing sweat pants.

“Hi Pastor Beck,” said Mr. Hart, stepping into the sunroom with his wife.  He nodded toward his daughter.  “This is—”

“Laurel,” she said, and she held out her hand to shake my father’s hand, although she didn’t stand up.  I wondered if she was paralyzed or something.  Then she turned toward me.  “Hi,” she said, still that slight smile on her face.  Her eyes looked deep into mine for a moment, but then they looked sad, almost hollow, and she looked away.

“I’m West,” I muttered.  “Nice to meet you.”

Everything felt surreal, as if I’d entered some dreamlike fairytale upon entering the sunroom—but then Mrs. Hart put a hand on my shoulder.  “West, good to meet you, sweetie,” she said.  “It was good of you and your father to come.  Silas, why don’t you and West go have fun, and Dad and I will stay here with Laurel and Pastor Beck?”  Go have fun—it reminded me of what my mom would say to me and my sister Libby when we were little.  Go outside.  Play nice.  Mrs. West noticed Silas’s t-shirt, rolled her eyes, and said, “You couldn’t have changed?”

Silas laughed.  “Come on,” he said to me.  “Let’s go upstairs.”

Gosh, he didn’t have to tell me twice.

“So, how long have you guys been in Green Lake?” I asked, following him back toward the front door and up the stairs that ran along the right wall.  The carpet was so thick that I felt like I was wading.

“Just moved a couple weeks ago.  From Fairbanks.”

Alaska?” I asked, dumbfounded.

“Yeah, we’ve lived there for the last three years.  This is my room.”

He opened a door, the second one on the left.  I wasn’t sure what I’d expected to see inside, but it was the room of a teenaged boy.  It was messy—some shirts and jeans lying on the floor, and a pair of boxers, from which I quickly looked away.  There was a small TV in the corner of the room and beside it, a pizza box with one old slice and some pieces of crust.  His nightstand seemed to have a mix of Sports Illustrated magazines and comic books.  Beside his closet was a huge bookcase, double-lined with books.  “Sorry about the mess,” he said.  “I’d like to say that it’s because of the move, but well … I’m just a slob.  Want to see the roof?”

But I was in his room already, the bookcase drawing me in like a tractor beam.  “You like to read,” I said.  Then, realizing it was the second obvious thing I’d said in the last ten minutes, I blushed.

But Silas laughed—clear, buoyant—and sat down on his bed, watching me peruse his titles.  “I do like to read, This-is-West-my-name-is-West.”

I rolled my eyes, but it was all good natured.  “How did you get so many books?”

“Growing up in the Hart family, you got books instead of toys.  I guess it stuck.”

“What’s your favorite?”

“Mmmm,” he said.  “Billy Collins.  Heard of him?”

I nodded.  “He’s a poet, right?”  I narrowed my eyes at Silas skeptically.  “Really?”  I didn’t know any teenagers who read poetry—I didn’t even read poetry, and I read more than anyone I knew.

“Cross my heart and hope to die,” he promised, still grinning where he sat on the bed.  Behind Silas’s head, hanging on the wall over his bed, were posters.  One said, “NOTICE” in official-looking red letters across the top, and beneath it ran the words, “Thank you for noticing this notice.  Your noting it has been noted.”  Beside it was poster of an orange (yes, the fruit) looking in horror at a glass of orange juice and saying, “Mom??”  In the corner of the room was a full-sized cardboard cutout of Darth Vader.

“Does Vader like to watch you sleep?” I teased, nodding toward the cutout.

“Nah,” said Silas, “but he joins me in bed and puts his head on my chest.  We both fall asleep to the sound his ventilated breathing.  It’s very soothing.”

I laughed.

Looking back at the shelves, I noticed a wide range—from Louis Sachar to John Steinbeck.  And Donovan Trick.  “What did you think of Collier?” I asked.

“It was good.  Actually, if it’s on that bookcase, it got my thumbs up.  I sell everything else on eBay.  I can’t stand to have crap lying around in my room.”

I gestured to the mess on his floor.  “I don’t quite believe you.”

Silas laughed and shrugged.  “You got me,” he said.  “So, are you a reader or do you write too?”

“Just a reader.”

“You’re lucky,” he said.  When I raised my eyebrows, he said, “Readers can just enjoy.  Writers enjoy a great sentence for about a minute, then we’re so envious we either want the incredible writer to die or we want to kill ourselves because we figure we’ll never write a sentence as good.  Or maybe that’s just me.”

“Do you listen to August Arms?” I asked.

“Huh?  Is that a band?”

“It’s a radio show.  It comes from Collier—you know that part where he says, ‘Stories are our most august arms against the darkness’?  The show is cool, just full of interesting stories.  You’d like it.  You know, or want to kill yourself.”  We both laughed.

I sat down on the edge of his bed.  “So what’s with Laurel?” I asked.  “Can she walk?”

He scowled.  He had a tiny freckle on his left cheek.  “Yes.  She’s fine.”

“Oh,” I retreated.  “Sorry.  We just—sorry.”

Silas shrugged and seemed to soften.  “It’s fine,” he said.  “I’m just protective; Laurel’s my twin sister.  It was really good of your dad to bring over communion.  Body and the Blood.  Good stuff.”

I was used to my dad using church phrases like that—but no one my own age talked that way.  “How old are you?” I asked him, suspiciously.

“Seventeen.  You?”

“Seventeen.”

I was looking hard at Silas Hart.  His cheekbones were high like Laurel’s, his eyebrows rapacious, and his eyes a dark, dark brown that looked just as alive as Laurel’s had looked hollow.  “What?” he asked, but this time his voice was cheerful again, almost teasing.

“West!” I heard my dad shout up the stairs.  “Ready to go?”

Silas and I walked down the stairs.  I glanced back down the hall in the direction of the sunroom, hoping to see Laurel again, as if she were an oddity, but the couch was empty.

“Silas, good to meet you today.  I hope we’ll see you at church next week too?” my dad asked.

“With bells on, sir,” Silas promised.

“Glad you got to meet Westlin,” Dad said.  “Maybe she can show you what’s fun in Green Lake, introduce you to some of her friends.”

“Maybe she can show me where to find a decent summer job,” he said to my dad, but glanced at me with a smile.  “That’s my first priority.”

“West here makes pretty good money doing car detailing in the summer, and she’s short a business partner and needing some help.”

Both Dad and Silas looked at me.  “You interested?” I squeaked out.

“Very.”

“We start tomorrow morning at nine in my driveway.  We’re in the parsonage by the community church.  Wear junky clothes.”

Silas pointed to his condiments t-shirt with a smirk.  “I’ll be there at five to.”

 

Dear Tru,

I met twins today—secrecy and spirit, dark and light.

Love, West

This is how I picture Silas Hart.

adult fiction

So, last week, I posted about my favorite YA lit titles, and it was fun to see others’ reactions and suggestions, both in the comments and on Facebook.  This week, I thought I’d post my top ten fiction books that fall outside of YA.

Peace Like a River by Leif Enger
The Last Unicorn by Peter Beagle
C.S. Lewis’s space trilogy, but especially That Hideous Strength
East of Eden by John Steinbeck
Rosie by Anne Lamott
Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier
The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis
Life of Pi by Yann Martel
Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath

Which ones have you read and enjoyed?  Which of your all-time favorites did I miss?

falling in love with fictional characters

Those of us who consider books to be among our best friends often find ourselves in this … situation … where we fall in love with people who don’t exist.

How many of us have wished to be bosom friends with Anne Shirley or to play Himmel Street soccer with Liesel Meminger and Rudy Steiner?  How many finished that epilogue in Deathly Hallows and then cried because our adventures with the Hogwarts trio were over?  And I know that I discover “my perfect boyfriend” from time to time– someone who exists only in the ink on pages– Gilbert Blythe, Jonah Griggs, Augustus Waters.

When I think of all the friends I’ve made through literature, I’m reminded of the power of books.  I hope I can create characters whom people consider friends someday.

Molly Grue, Stargirl Carraway, Leslie Burke and Jess Aarons, the Pevensie siblings, Dickon, Winnie Foster and Jesse Tuck, Swede Land, Cal Trask, Pi Patel, Diana Barry, Prince Caspian, Richard Parker, Max Vandenburg … who are your best literary friends?