Oh, February 14th. Seems like just last year I was thinking, Ahhh, but I won’t be alone next Valentines Day.
Ooops. Wrong again!
Sometimes I can sound a little bitter about being single, but I actually don’t always hate it. I can be super selfish with my time, go to Barnes & Noble whenever I want, buy whatever I want. I can drop everything and go to California for a weekend. I don’t have to cook for anyone. More time for ministry over the years. And, though this might sound strange, years of watching friends marry and be married has taught me a ton about what I want in a husband, in a marriage, even in a wedding ceremony.
But good old V-Day. It’s never very fun to be single on Valentines Day.
I have nothing against Valentines Day. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with choosing a day to make a big deal out of love. I don’t really care about the commercialism even. I think, if you’re blessed enough to have someone you love, you should celebrate your relationship every day. But why not make a big fuss over it one day a year? Sometimes it seems like the couples who don’t celebrate V-Day are trying to make a statement I don’t exactly understand.
I was talking to a friend the other day about how I’m glad I didn’t marry young. It’s true, even though at the time, it was all that I wanted. I think students at Christian colleges get married way too young; the culture expects and demands it. It’s not their fault. They feel ready, and hey, maybe some are. But I know I am so much wiser now, healthier now, Jackie-er now than I was ten years ago. I have been forced to learn and do things that I probably wouldn’t have otherwise. I know every facet of my identity in a much clearer way– heck, when I was in college, I was only starting to tiptoe into those waters!
I’m not saying college students shouldn’t get married or that it’s bad to marry young. Well, maybe I am, a little. Let’s be honest, there’s no formula to these things. (Although I will say that almost every failed marriage I’ve seen has come from couples who married pretty young.)
Meh, I’m going to get myself in trouble on my blog. On Valentines Day. Listen, don’t yell at me too much. Remember that I am all alone and show me grace.
I still love love.
Ahhh, but I won’t be alone next Valentines Day …