Trusting the whatta?
The creative process. I don’t know anyone (except for maybe Addie Zierman) who writes lovely first drafts, and that is just fine. Freewrite, feedback, re-write, repeat: for me at least, this is the model of the creative process. And every time I get to the “repeat” part, the draft is better. If you can boil writing into a formula, that’s what mine looks like. And then one magical day, the “feedback” part says, “Um, I like it as is,” and you’re done (until some agent tells you otherwise).
It’s bizarre. Writing– this strange, mystical, spiritual experience– is somehow, for me, whittled into show up and write and then do it again. After enough times, this clunky, staggering, unrealistic, forced, ridiculous draft turns into a piece of art. I’m amazed by it.
I have not been writing fiction for long. Fewer than five years actually. So I am still in the dating stage with the creative process, still a little unsure that it will really work, uncertain that this formula really does add up. I’ve spent the last four and half years watching it work (consistently!), and yet I still find myself doubting it.
Then I write another draft, and it is that much better than the last one, and I think in wonder, “It really is working!”
Just like any other relationship, I am learning to trust the creative process. Show up, put in the effort, don’t get too attached, receive criticism, edit, edit, edit, edit, edit … and it will work.
I am posting this reminder TO MYSELF:
Jackie, KEEP GOING. Write and keep an open dialogue with those who care about your project. It will come together. If it has come this far in 8 months, think of where it will be a year from now! The creative process WORKS. It can handle your doubt as long as you keep showing up.
Will you please leave me an encouraging comment? I could sure use one right now.