
Usually, as vacation winds down to its end, I find myself agitated and antsy, let down because I didn’t accomplish X, Y, or Z (to be clear, my vacations always have a long list of goals!!).
But today was great. I felt accomplished. I felt satisfied. I felt eager.
I’m objectively smart, and yet sometimes the most obvious things hit me like choruses from angels.
Today’s lesson/reminder was twofold:
1) You don’t have to keep doing things the same way if it’s not working anymore. So simple, yet sooooo freeing. I have all the permission in the world to try out new systems. Why was this so stunning and brilliant to me? IDK, but I’m sharing in case it is helpful for anyone else. I keep trying to force revisions of Yes Novel into the same format (a syllabus, deadlines, word counts, a narrative summary that feels like I’m banging my head against the wall) that worked for Salt Novel. It worked last summer, but it is not working this summer. OK. I’m going to try something else.
2) When I was younger, I believed I was capable of almost anything (*almost*… the WNBA was never a possibility). So the question was, “What would you do if you knew you’d never fail?” Now I’m a little older and am better acquainted with my own limits, the question is “What would you do EVEN IF you knew you’d fail?” There’s so much beauty in one’s calling.
Can I comment on here?
McKenna, yes, you can. But I am not a therapist and can’t diagnose you or give you advice on OCD. But I have lots of resources at http://www.jackieleasommers.com/OCD.
Hi Jackie! Yes I know you can’t diagnose me but I do know you have gone through OCD and you seem to be very good at recognizing symptoms. Did you read my longer comment? I’m just asking to see if it sounds like OCD
Yes, it sounds exactly like HOCD, dear!!
Thank you so much! Have a nice day 🙂