1 Week Till Truest: Sneak Peek!!!

t1Yes, that’s right: ONE. WEEK. LEFT.

One week till you can start reading Tru– oh, just a moment.

*confers with the powers that be*

*whispers, “whaaaaaaaat?!“*

*scurries back to you*

BIG NEWS! You can start reading Truest
TODAY!!!

Click the picture below to read the first few chapters of Truest, and then go pre-order it! I have links to all your favorite online bookstores at jackieleasommers.com/truest!

SNEAK PEEK Truest

 Also, if you’re local, please consider coming to the launch party:
Tuesday, September 1, 2015, 7 pm
University of Northwestern
Nazareth Great Room

Food, door prizes, an opportunity to buy Truest and have it signed–
and simple, easy, free parking. I hope to see you there!

A Humble, Hesitant Defense of Pantsers

I know I’ve been spewing on this blog since last night, but I have a hundred million emotions, and I haven’t been blogging, so in some ways, these hundred million emotions have been locked up inside me, and I need to get them OUT OUT OUT. I’m a mess, to be honest.

So, lately I’ve been a little (or more) stung when one of my favorite authors has really been slamming the whole “pantsers” process. For those unfamiliar with my terminology here, it’s a term you hear in the writing word: some are plotters (they plot and plan prior to writing a book) and some are “pantsers” (they write by the seat of their pants). I write my first drafts as a pantser. It’s the only way 1) I know how and 2) I can. I’ve tried to plot before, and then I lose all the energy around the project and can’t even start it.

Anyway, this writer I really admire has been really shredding the pantser process, saying that you can’t write a life-changing book that way. In addition, this other blog I follow and really respect said much the same thing. It’s hard not to feel attacked, even though obviously these posts aren’t aimed directly at me– but indirectly, they are!

I want to be indignant and upset and mad and frustrated (and I am … and have even spouted off on Twitter about it a little), but I also want to acknowledge that I’m new to this. Yes, I’ve been writing my whole life, but not professionally. My first book comes out in just over a week, and I’m working on a second one. I’m at the starting line. This would not be the first time that I’ve vocally disagreed with something that I later come to embrace. Which is why I’m being hesitant. I could see myself eating my words in ten years. Because I’m hasty and an amateur.

But GOSH, does it bother me to have people that I respect slam my writing process! It’s so very hard to have an author I admire essentially prescribe the right way to write. Yes, a pantser probably has a lot more rounds of revisions– but I’d hope that the final product masks that. Yet, this author says that a well-thought-out perfect sentence on the front end will always be better than a multiple-times-revised sentence. I just can’t win.

It probably shouldn’t bother me the way it does. But it’s hard to have a hero say, “You’re doing it wrong.”

I’m cranky and tremendously emotional, and I feel snubbed by the profession in more ways than one. Oh, and I forgot to take my OCD meds yesterday, which I’m sure doesn’t help things.

I’ve said it before, and I’m sure I’ll say it again: I thought getting the book deal would be the hardest part of the publication process, but that’s not even close. The revisions were so much harder and the emotions are a BEAST. Sometimes I’m not sure I’ll ever figure out the writing life– or how to toughen up my skin enough to make it in this field I love. I never imagined that a week away from publishing my debut novel I would feel so sad and alone and scared and bedridden.

Sigh. And I need to revise novel #2 today. It’s okay. I chose this life, and I honestly do love it. I can’t imagine not being a writer. It is one of the sweetest joys I’ve ever been allowed– a reason I believe in God!– but oh, is it ever hard.

Thank you for listening. ❤

girl typing on a typewriter

Truest Around the Web

A few bloggers have been so kind to host me on their lovely sites. I’ve gotten some tremendously thoughtful questions about my book, my writing process, and myself. I hope you’ll check them out and give their sites some traffic!

The Little Things Blog: this interview really focuses on mental health themes

Brooks Editorial: this interview discusses my creative routines and addresses burnout

Write Lara Write: this one dives into my writing process and I share the best and worst writing advice I’ve been given

State of the Blogger: Anxious, Thrilled, Overwhelmed, Nervous, Happy, Sad, Complicated

Eleven days until my debut novel comes out, and I’m a MESS of emotions.

I’m anxious. I want September 1st to be here, but I also have a sneaking suspicion that the sun will rise the same on that day as it does on August 31st. I theoretically understand that one minute after midnight doesn’t mean the world will have automatically uploaded my story into their heads. My life changes on September 1st … but how tangible will it be?

I’m thrilled. I am so excited that my friends and family are so excited along with me. I’m pumped to celebrate with Addendum Bookstore and my alma mater. I’ve been preparing the schedule and what I want to say, and I feel ready and eager to be front and center. Except I don’t know what to wear. Yet.

I’m overwhelmed. I’ve already learned that Goodreads is not my happy place. It’s weird to hear feedback without having an appropriate avenue to dialogue. Which is fine. It’s just different. I’ve never been in a position before where that’s been true. All of my writing has heretofore had a very localized audience– classmates, writing group, beta readers, etc. Or else it’s my blog, which has a more widespread audience, but where it’s my space and I can dialogue with you guys. Now my book is winging its way into the world, and I just have to sit back and let it happen. For better or for worse.

I’m nervous. What if no one buys it? What if no one likes it? What if it’s completely forgotten about by Christmas? These are really fears and worries of mine, and there is no data or evidence to help predict it one way or the other. I have faith like a mustard seed and prayers that are palms open.

I’m happy. I wrote a book. Early readers seem to like it. I’m happy with it. I’m excited: a dream of mine is coming true! I’m seeing my name pop up around the internet, and every time is like a tiny pat on the back– or a hand on my arm, comforting.

I’m sad. I don’t know why. Because the fear and the doubt and the ever-present anxiety disorder are working me over and whispering mean things to me. I’m sad because I’m already imagining September 2nd, when the party is cleaned up, and many people put their signed copy of Truest on their shelf instead of their nightstand. I’m sad because …

I’m complicated. I’m a woman, a writer, and a human being. Life is hard and exciting and has tons of shades of gray, and I’ve learned to like gray, but that doesn’t mean that gray isn’t still tough. Everything is just very layered and complicated, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

2 Weeks Till Truest: Q&A with Truest Author Jackie Lea Sommers

t2It’s safe to say that I’m freaking out (in a good way!). Two weeks A fortnight* till my book is released!

*way cooler 🙂

Back in June, I asked folks if they had any questions about anything Truest-related, with the intent of writing this blog post. Today I’m answering those questions!

What inspired the characters?
In January 2012, John Green’s The Fault in Our Stars was published, and when I read it, I loved the character of Augustus Waters so much that I quit working on the story I was writing at the time and told myself, “I’m going to try writing YA. And I’m going to start with a character I LOVE.” What resulted was Silas Hart, who was the cornerstone around which the rest of Truest was built. So, while Silas and Augustus may bear similarities, it was not that I wanted to re-make Augustus Waters but that Gus (and John Green) inspired me to start writing for young adults and to start with characters before all else. Hence, I named the town Green Lake. 🙂 Thanks, John! DFTBA.

Who is your favorite character? Who is not your favorite but intrigues you the most?
Silas is my favorite. Silas would have been my dream boy when I was seventeen. Laurel fascinates me. So does Whit. And Gordon too. I’d love to know more of Gordon’s history. I’d like to explore more of Whit’s future. I’d be remiss to not mention that I also adore West. I knew I’d be spending several years with these characters; I made them into people I wanted to spend time with.

Does this mean you’ll write another story about them?
Maybe! I’d love to revisit Green Lake 4-5 years down the road and see what trouble Whit has gotten himself into.

What comes first in your writing process, plot or characters? Do you have a system for keeping track of details like character back story?
Characters. My stories are character-driven vs. plot-driven. Even if they were plot-driven, I would still start with characters. As far as keeping track of details: my brain is a bit of a steel trap. I also do a lot of work-arounds, for example, maintaining “West’s summer calendar.” Some of the backstory I had to write just to write it– just to know it, even if it never appears in the story. I wrote out a sort of “History of Green Lake” to establish the long-time friendship of some of the characters. Even those most of those stories don’t appear in Truest, it helped me to approach the story differently, with a greater sense of history.

How many of your own traits did you put into your characters?
I can be a bit bossy like West; we’re also both deeply curious and love to read. Silas and I are both writers and “get” each other on that level. He has writer’s envy just like I do. Laurel and I have had similar thought patterns. In fact …

How did you learn about Laurel’s strange condition? What research did you have to do?
To keep this spoiler-free, I will just say that Laurel’s issues are something that I have also experienced back in, oh, 2003 or 2004. Although I did do additional research, much of what I wrote came from personal experience.

If one thing from your book (other than the characters) could be real, what would you choose?
Probably WARegon Trail or August Arms. Or Collier. Or “Ransom Avalanche.” Clearly, I want many, many things. Ha!

What was your revision process?
I spent six months writing the first draft of Truest, then another year polishing it (with the help of a writing group, a local editor, critique teams at a writing workshop, and beta readers). After signing with my agent, he suggested some additional revisions before we put it on submission. After I signed with Jill Davis at Katherine Tegen Books, she and I revised for nearly a year before we got it just right! Then, of course, there is copyediting … Let’s just say that I’ll believe I’m finished revising when I see it in print! 🙂

Was there a scene that really tripped you up?
Yes, the ending was tremendously hard for me to write. As the author, I had taken these characters I loved and put them through hell … and I didn’t know how to get them out it. I remember sitting on my couch, crying for West and Silas as if they were real people, real friends I was powerless to help. An incredible conversation with my dear friend Kristin (one of the women to whom the book is dedicated) led me gently to the book’s redemptive conclusion.

after truest 3Have you written anything from Silas’s POV?
Well, aren’t you in luck! I’ve actually written two important scenes from Truest from Silas’s POV, and they are posted over at truestnovel.tumblr.com. It’s a password-protected site (since it’s full of spoilers!). The password is the final word of Truest.

Will you write anything more from his POV?
I have a scene or two I’m thinking about tackling. Stay tuned!

What if I have spoiler-y questions?
Hop on over to truestnovel.tumblr.com and ask there! I think my favorite part of this entire journey is interacting with readers after they’ve read the novel, and I’d love to chat with you there!

To learn more about Truest and to pre-order your copy, check out jackieleasommers.com/truest!

Truest ARC Giveaway!

Great news! I have a few more advance review copies of Truest to give away! Click the picture below to enter the giveaway. Good luck!

P.S. You’ll have to either enter your email address or else log in with Facebook– but that’s so that I have a way to contact you if you win! 🙂 So don’t be scared of it. 🙂

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Drawing will be open until midnight on Sunday, August 17.
Winners will be notified via email shortly thereafter.
The publisher will ship to the US only.

3 Weeks Till Truest: Book Recs from the Truest Characters

t3Three weeks. Three. Weeks. THREE WEEKS.

You have to understand that when I got my book deal, publication was ninety-three weeks away. Yes, you read that right.

It’s been a long, long journey. An amazing one.

In that time, I’ve finalized Truest, written and set aside a second book, and written and started revisions on a third. In that time, I’ve read who knows how many books.

Today the four big readers in Truest are sharing their own book recommendations with you.

recommendations updated

(In case it’s hard to see …
West recommends: Collier by Donovan Trick, The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, & Questions about Angels by Billy Collins
Silas recommends: Questions about Angels by Billy Collins, Selected Poems by E.E. Cummings, & Collier by Donovan Trick
Laurel recommends: Sophie’s World by Jostein Gaarder, Perelandra by C.S. Lewis, & The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle
Gordon recommends: Collier by Donovan Trick, East of Eden by John Steinbeck, & The Last Battle by C.S. Lewis)

Learn more about Truest and pre-order your copy at jackieleasommers.com/truest!