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Once upon a time, there was a young girl named Jackie Lea who loved to tell and write stories. She made a short list of her life’s goals, and one of the items on the list was to publish a book.
Jackie Lea worked tirelessly toward this goal: she wrote all through high school and college. She wrote after college too, and she created a writing group, and she spent her precious money on workshops and conferences and readings to help her become a better writer.
She was very, very tired. But still very determined.
“If I can just get a book deal, I’ll have met my goal, and then just think how happy I’ll be! I’ll be a professional. I’ll be thrilled. I’ll be validated,” she told herself.
Then one lovely November day, she got incredible news: an editor loved her story and was going to publish her! Jackie Lea had worked hard, and all her dreams had finally come true.
II.
Except that the book deal added so much stress to Jackie Lea’s life that she felt overwhelmed and panicked, jealous of other writers, nervous about her revisions, terrified to give up control, and generally quite fearful.
And she would cry about it.
And that felt wrong too, because who cries in a fairy tale when her dream is coming true?
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Ohhhh Jackie, you have no idea how much you and I are on the same page right now. We need to chat sometime. 🙂
Read Hugh Howeys most recent post on his blog… it’s awesome and hopefully you’ll feel a little better afterwards (o:
Awww, Jackie. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
I think when we chase our dreams, we don’t dwell on the “reality” part of them…….I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I have complete faith that you will get through this. Not only are you a great writer, you are a strong person (though feel free to be weak once in a while :)). I’m cheering you on!
Tears bring both joy and sorrow, release emotions and hype up anxiety. I hope and pray that you will continue to realize your “fairy tale.”