I’ve had a very, very active brain for pretty much my entire life. I’m the girl people always described as “the one who thinks too much.” I have thoughts and ideas rush me like little hurricanes, and this is just as true after ERP therapy as it was before.
But there’s a huge difference too: productivity.
Before ERP, my thoughts were often OCD-induced intrusive thoughts that led me down dark avenues over and over again. My thinking was circular, and I could re-visit the same ideas an uncountable number of times each day. I was a hamster on a treadmill or a dog chasing its tail– that is, expending a lot of energy but going nowhere.
After ERP, my thoughts are much more welcome to me. I can choose to focus on the ones I want. I may still be lying awake at night, but it’s productive, and I end up jotting tons of notes and ideas down in my phone. I start in one place, but an hour later, I’ve traveled some distance and often have huge realizations about my fictional characters and storylines.
Believe me, the latter is much more fulfilling.
For more about the ERP therapy that set me free, go to jackieleasommers.com/OCD.