Before my life-changing round of exposure and response prevention …
Me: Sad, guilty, full of continual anxiety and doubt. I had this amazing family, friends who deeply loved me, and a college degree in a field that I loved … but I was a soul in anguish.
Dad: Upset, frustrated, reluctant to discuss anything OCD-related. He couldn’t understand how my life could be so good and yet I could be so sad. I think it was hard for him to see his daughter suffering from a pain he couldn’t fix.
Mom: Sympathetic, sorry, and wondering if she was to blame for this disorder that was ravaging her eldest.
Sister: Confused and scared. Sharing a room with me, she had fallen asleep to the sound of my tears every night for– literally– years. And now, all these years later, she feels guilty that she had listened to me when I asked her not to tell.
Brother: Annoyed. Why couldn’t his oldest sister just be normal for once instead of a nutcase?
OCD affects the whole family.
I am so grateful that God led me to the exact right doctors to help me! My psychiatrist got me onto the right cocktail of medication and referred me to cognitive-behavioral therapy, which changed my whole life!
These days, my whole family revels in my rescue! I just got off the phone with my brother, and he said, “I can really only remember the good things.”
I am glad.