What happens if you write a book that is too Christian for a secular publisher and too secular for a Christian publisher?
God, I want to write a book that honors You, boldly declares Your Name, is NOT preachy, but is CLEAR on the gospel. And also is realistic and full of grotesque life. I feel burdened tonight, but I KNOW that YOU will find a place for it if YOU want to. I just want to write the book that You want me to write. Point me to YOUR edits above all others’. I just want to please everyone, and I need to QUIT THAT. I need to return to my list. #1 You, #2 me, #3 JG. Remind me of this list. This is the list I should have in the back of my mind as I make edits, as I rewrite.
God, I feel emotionally drained by West and Silas and Laurel. But it feels GOOD, in a way. Good, if I can point to You in dark times. Why would I want to write a story that didn’t point to You? Please help me, Jesus. Will You please make the road rise up before me?
I love You. I need Your help in EVERYTHING. Amen.
And so I am just trying to write the very best book I can and to trust God to divinely intervene all he wants.