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  1. Chrissy, hi. No, I don’t believe that is true. But that won’t convince you. I got to the point where I decided it didn’t matter enough to worry over. That might sound impossible to you, but it was made possible for me through doing exposure therapy. Have you heard of it?

    • Jackie I have felt some comfort from reading your blogs! Let me start out by saying I am in the hell of HOCD right now and it is absolutely turning my life upside down! I am a 27 year old male and I have always enjoyed being with women and have always wanted to be with them and be married to one one day and have a family with that women someday. Right now however because of the hell this disease is putting me through I’m completely confused I don’t know what I want anymore it’s almost like my mind is telling me to just be gay even though that’s exactly what I don’t want. I have the same fear as some of your other bloggers that if I do ERP I will actually become gay. This mess is ruining my life me and my girlfriend have been dating for 2 years and the other day I knew for sure that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her but then the HOCD crept up again and was asking myself if I’m sure this is very painful because everything that I thought I once knew is just a big confusion for me. Please help me or give me some insight. Oh and I have been going to a therapist but I almost hate going now since it almost feels like she is trying to convince me that I might be gay. This has gotten so bad that somedays I can’t even work and think to myself that I just want to die. I just want to go back to the old guy who was immediately attracted to almost every girl I saw and fantasized regularly about being with them. Please please please help!! I’m helpless

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