I used to get thrown by anything I couldn’t know FOR SURE.
Is real life real life, or am I just dreaming?
Am I going to heaven?
Are my friends really my friends?
What do people really think of me?
Are people even really people?
I mean, completely thrown. I had no framework for dealing with uncertainty. And the truth is that a person just cannot live that way. It’s not how life works.
Now that ERP has re-wired my mind, I am finally able to say, “I’m just going to have to accept that I can’t know” and carry on with life. I never thought I’d be able to approach such huge things with that kind of statement. Never. If you’re reading this and think that that is an impossibility for you, please know that I once thought the same.
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Hi Jackie. Right now my therapist is trying to help me with embracing uncertainty. I get trapped with verses in the Bible that talk about knowing you have eternal life and to be sure of your calling. I am constantly obsessing over my salvation. Maybe you can shed some light on this.
Do you have other obsessions/compulsions that are less related to salvation? I would start there. Let that ERP get working on the rewiring! ❤️