I’ve mentioned my trichotillomania before on my blog, but I don’t talk about it very often. It’s not OCD, but it probably lies on the obsessive-compulsive spectrum.
As an OC, I can tell that it is different but related. In my experience, it’s not induced by an intrusive thought, although I do pull out my hair significantly more when I’m stressed. Usually, I will feel a hair on my scalp that doesn’t feel like the others, and it doesn’t feel “right” until I pull it out. So, in that sense it does function kind of like my compulsions.
I pull from the crown of my scalp. I have a little sprig of hair there that I have to hide. It’s been this way for maybe a decade.
Interestingly, I want to pull out other people’s hair too. If they have black hair and I see a couple pieces of gray, I want to pull them. Like, REALLY bad.
A former therapist encouraged me to squeeze my fist as tight as possible when I want to pull– I tried it, and it fascinatingly does mimic the release I get from pulling my hair. Sometimes I try that.
I’m so grateful to have my OCD under control. I wonder if I’ll ever feel the same about my tricho.