Some of you probably think that I am being dramatic. If you do, I can almost guarantee that you have never suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder, because those with OCD know that it essentially steals life and joy right out from under you.
I was in a dark place. My thoughts felt uncontrollable and blasphemous. I could not take long car rides or fall asleep at night without audiobooks because I needed to give my racing mind something to focus on. I felt deeply guilty nearly all of the time– and even about small or ridiculous things. I had an unreasonable weight of responsibility on my shoulders, as if I were somehow the one keeping the world functioning. I entertained silly and/or terrifying idea of reality. I felt hellbound and cut off from God’s love and forgiveness. I was without hope and utterly exhausted.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy was one of the hardest things that I have ever undergone– but those 12 weeks of intense therapy were what God used to set me free from the clutches of OCD. CBT is a strange concept– give in to your obsessive thoughts in order to gain control over them– but IT WORKS. I am living proof.
I cannot recommend CBT enough. It is my mantra to anyone who suffers from OCD: get CBT, get CBT, get CBT. I feel so much happiness, joy, security, normality now that I want to plead with OCs to come join me on the other side.
Listen up. If you have OCD and are living in darkness, I know the way out. I would be happy to sit down with you and tell you all about CBT, answer any questions that you might have, and encourage you as best as I can. Go to http://abct.org and find a cognitive-behavioral therapist in your area. There is a light ahead.