Some of you probably think that I am being dramatic. If you do, I can almost guarantee that you have never suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder, because those with OCD know that it essentially steals life and joy right out from under you.
I was in a dark place. My thoughts felt uncontrollable and blasphemous. I could not take long car rides or fall asleep at night without audiobooks because I needed to give my racing mind something to focus on. I felt deeply guilty nearly all of the time– and even about small or ridiculous things. I had an unreasonable weight of responsibility on my shoulders, as if I were somehow the one keeping the world functioning. I entertained silly and/or terrifying idea of reality. I felt hellbound and cut off from God’s love and forgiveness. I was without hope and utterly exhausted.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy was one of the hardest things that I have ever undergone– but those 12 weeks of intense therapy were what God used to set me free from the clutches of OCD. CBT is a strange concept– give in to your obsessive thoughts in order to gain control over them– but IT WORKS. I am living proof.
I cannot recommend CBT enough. It is my mantra to anyone who suffers from OCD: get CBT, get CBT, get CBT. I feel so much happiness, joy, security, normality now that I want to plead with OCs to come join me on the other side.
Listen up. If you have OCD and are living in darkness, I know the way out. I would be happy to sit down with you and tell you all about CBT, answer any questions that you might have, and encourage you as best as I can. Go to http://abct.org and find a cognitive-behavioral therapist in your area. There is a light ahead.
Thanks for giving CBT the credit it deserves, Jackie! Exposure Response Prevention (ERP) Therapy (a type of CBT) literally saved my son’s life when he suffered from severe OCD. We need to get the word out there that OCD is very treatable. Thanks for doing your part!
It’s my pleasure. I am so indebted to go and my cognitive-behavioral therapist.
to GOD, that is!
Oh, you are definitely NOT being overly dramatic. I can’t believe the improved quality of my life after CBT. I’m not even fully healed either! In fact, I still have a very long way to go. But, life is just so much more bearable and enjoyable that I feel like singing a lot of the time because I’m so thrilled. I really praise God for creating wonderful doctors who came up with CBT.
I agree, Sunny! What a backward concept– but it works! I am so grateful to God for inspiring someone with that notion!
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I love that song by the way! I heard it a long time ago. And love the music video as well.