As a gentle reminder, my policy is to no longer engage in one-on-one conversations about OCD (that’s the job of a therapist, which I am not!).
However, I do hope you’ll find lots of resources on my site.
For more guidance, feel free to email firstname.lastname@example.org with either OCD or HOCD in the subject line, and you’ll get an auto-response full of resources.
You are beloved, friends. If you have even the slightest suspicion you’re dealing with OCD, get a book about exposure therapy and dive in. ERP, though frightening, is the key to your shackles.