This Week Has Been Whoa

One year ago, I made the decision to set Yes Novel aside after fourteen months of hard work. I returned to a draft of a story I’d written earlier (Salt Novel) and now, a year later, I’m working through a revision plan of attack. My editor is on board. I love the characters. The story has a soul.

It’s all still so very hard. But rereading this post is a great reminder of how far I’ve come.


So, I’m sitting here debating how much I want to say, and instead, I think I just need to start.

This week has been wild.



On Sunday, depression surged up and wrapped its ugly hands around my throat. But I don’t mess around anymore. I called in all the reserves: meds, essential oils, tons of water, vitamins, meeting with my therapist, a chiropractic adjustment. By Wednesday, my world wasn’t ending anymore.

Which is interesting because on Tuesday I talked to my editor about Yes Novel, and she said, “Start over.”

Yeah, you read that right. Start over.

But guess what? That conversation made me so happy. I’m serious. Because I wasn’t feeling good about Yes Novel (haven’t been for a while!) and so to hear my editor say that she wasn’t either meant we were on the same page. That’s such a good feeling. I can’t tell you what a…

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9 thoughts on “This Week Has Been Whoa

      • Ah, okay. Thanks. Yeah, I think I already know what I have to do, just looking for reassurance probably. I won’t delete it. 🙂 I truly hope the anxiety does subside though because right now I feel very uncomfortable.

      • It’s weird, the anxiety still has not lessened and I don’t know why. Maybe I’m dwelling on it too much, worrying that it won’t go away. That’s what I’m doing, posting a lot on forums for reassurance that I’m doing the right thing and all that…

      • The reassurance and time searching forums … those are all compulsions, Peter. With ERP, you need to resist the compulsions for it to be effective. That’s the RP (response prevention) part!

      • Yes, I think it would be a good idea for me to just say “screw it” and let it all go. For instance, I keep rereading OCD books to try to reassure myself that ERP works, even though I know it does. I’m just worried in this case it won’t work.

  1. Hi Jachie, Haven’t written for a long time so you probably don’t remember me. I just wanted to offer my best wishes and prayers in your time of difficulty. Your a wonderfully talented young writer with a promising future. Think of the anxiety as growth pains within the pregnancy of a new novel. Hang in there. Take the pressure off yourself. Relax and enjoy some too. The reward will come.

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