I have never really been neutral about anything. I am an extremist, and I feel things in my bones.
I sometimes have a hard time seeing that the current situation will likely change soon. This is a burden given to me by obsessive-compulsive disorder. We OCs think things will always feel this way.
I am a writer. Creativity is like air to me.
All of these things combine, and you have me, this volatile, passionate artist whose highs are marvelous and whose lows are dark. When writing is not going well, I sometimes think it will NEVER go well again.
Years of this rollercoaster should have proved to me that things will level out again. I don’t have to rush every draft like a linebacker, don’t have to wrestle it into shape. I can relax, breathe deeply, set it aside for a (short) time, think and pray and carry on.